rant
2024.11.26 10:41 Dull_Bumblebee_6212 rant
hi all, i'm writing this after thinking about whether or not i should do it and i decided to do it and will probably delete it after a while. this issue has been weighing on my mind for over a month now and i wanted to get people's opinions on this because i feel pretty shitty about myself rn.
so basically i have this male friend let’s call him A so me and A have been friends since 2019 where we were classmates and our friendship continued even though we were in different classes for y3 and y4 and happened to be classmates again for y5 and y6. A is a friend whom i trust a lot, i share most of my deepest secrets with him and we used to talk a lot. of course we had ups and downs in our friendship (conflicts and misunderstandings), but i realised it was also me who took the first step to clear up the issue between us everytime. as classmates in jc, things were still normal between us — chatting online almost everyday, hanging out from time to time and at the beginning of this year he started to reply less. or even so he started to become more dry with his responses. initially i thought he needed space, and that’s what i gave. so i stopped initiating conversations, and we just hardly talk anymore. a few months later, i found out that A had someone he liked (a girl let’s call her B). upon knowing that, i logged out from his instagram account which i initially had from y3. for some context he also had my account details that we exchanged, and i used his Instagram cfl as a coping mechanism (i have no idea why i was really not in a good place). anyway, i logged out because i wanted to respect their boundaries because i fully supported them getting together and i felt that if i were in her position she would not like that. as time passes, things between me and A continued like this with occasional conversations i mean we are also in our alevel year so it was also guaranteed you know. and so i’ve been going about my life like that, trying to keep everything together and keeping things to myself because i didn’t want to burden everyone. i pretended i was okay with things being like that i mean after all we were friends for so long but honestly it wasn’t something that i could control.
as time passes we graduated too. similarly like how i prepared gifts for my other friends, i gave him the same gifts too. i also wrote a thank you message while sending pics like how i wrote for everyone else and he didn’t reply. not even a single thank you (which i must say i was pretty pissed about because that’s a little rude lol). two weeks after grad, i suddenly got a text from A when i was about to study “my gf say you can’t text me” (i changed the msg in case the people involved happen to read this but the message is there)(and also first of all congrats i didn’t know you guys finally got together). and there wasn’t a single explanation and i thought that this was a stranger texting me. i was confused, and while i was processing all that, i moved onto another messaging platform to find another message from the same person "i know you already don’t text me but ig just don’t?” i was confused, upset, angry and filled with guilt all at once. what have i done so wrong to be treated this way? i’m not mad at the situation — i completely understand where B is coming from and i am not mad at that. i’m mad at the principle behind it you know? i understand where B is coming from and i truly do wish i had the chance to explain myself but i don’t. and i guess i am more upset at the fact that i didn't get an explanation and A was treating me as if we weren't friends for 6 years. i guess part of me already knew our friendship wasn’t the same as it used to but i tolerated it, brushing it off as something i deserved for trauma dumping and that A needed space. but i feel like this situation made me recall instances where i tolerated any disrespect. everytime his attitude towards me changes, i try my best to understand and i was patient with it. but i guess my patience has limits too. i feel so misunderstood in this situation, and yet i wasn’t given a chance to explain myself.
A actually texted me afterwards saying that he would explain another day after one of our papers (mind you, this incident happened before alevels and it’s something i think about practically everyday during alevels season) and he said he thought the situation was funny??? i wasn’t going to give him the chance to explain since i wasn’t given one, but i guess that wasn’t fair to him as well as i thought he was probably stuck in a bind as well. but you know i spent days before thinking about whether i wanted to continue this friendship. i tried my best not to see it as though A devalues the friendship or that it wasn’t because i wasn’t good enough and that all of this happened because of me (i truly don’t think i did anything wrong but at the same time i feel like it’s my fault???) i tried my best not to tie to this my self-worth. but i realise i have a lot on my plate and i am very tired. so i chose to cut off the friendship, at least temporarily until things get figured out — not that i don’t cherish the friendship but because i cherish it too much and i don’t want my friendship with him ruin his relationship with her. and i do hope they have a happy relationship together. i know it’s not his fault he just wanted to protect his relationship, but it doesn't change the fact that things were said and it doesn't change the fact that it hurt.
so anyway i did listen to his explanation. and he told me that he doesn’t think that cutting off would be the best situation. i asked him what was it he wanted and he said he wanted both. but if you look at the situation, there is not possible way there can be both because i would be placed in a situation where i am constantly misunderstood and i don’t think B would be very happy. i understand but i am so tired of understanding. basically no conclusion was reached as A said “how about we settle this after As because i don’t want to think about it during As”. unfortunately it’s all i think about and i would say it definitely affected my studies a little. i also think the funniest thing was that he asked me to be optimistic about the outcome, when being optimistic is something that i have trouble doing.
thursday is my last paper. i thought i was juggling everything pretty well until today when i happen to see that he had unfollowed me from my main account too, and i think that was kind of the last straw for me. i had previously deactivated my instagram so that i could focus on my studies so i really did not expect that within the few days that i had activated back my account A would already have unfollowed me. i think in a way it was a sign that he has already made his decision, and there was nothing i can do. i just have to accept that A would never be in my life again, and he's just a stranger that i used to share my secrets with. i think it would kind of bitchy for me to say that i am glad i was never optimistic about the outcome. not that i didn't try, but i just couldn't see how we can remain friends after this situation. even if we do decide to remain friends, there is no way our friendship can ever return to what it used to be.
now that it has come to this, i sincerely hope they're happy together, and i hope i can heal from the loss of a long-term friendship that i never ever thought i would lose. but right now, all i can think about is that am i really not good enough lol. do i have bad luck or am i just a bad person? idk, i'm just so tired. i don't want this to affect my last paper too.
if you have read until here, thank you. i would appreciate any thoughts or advice.
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2024.11.26 10:41 Turbulent_Property_4 La Talpa 2024: Alessandro Egger vince il programma! Lucilla Agosti è La Talpa
Ecco cosa è accaduto nell'assurda finale anticipata dello storico reality show, condotto per la prima volta da Diletta Leotta!
Nel corso della puntata finale de La Talpa andata in onda lunedì 25 novembre 2024, è stata svelata l’identità della talpa: Lucilla Agosti. La conduttrice radiofonica è riuscita a mantenere il segreto fino alla fine, svelando poi i sabotaggi fatti ai suoi compagni d’avventura nel corso del programma.
Prosegui la lettura
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2024.11.26 10:41 LiamC666 I know Doug is a self centred, narcissistic prick and that Connolly is a bit of a douche but you can’t deny, Entourage is a masterpiece. I fucking love that show.
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2024.11.26 10:41 buggeddeggub this means CM5 is not compatible the same as CM4 it seems. source!
source: https://bret.dk/raspberry-pi-cm5-is-weeks-away/
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2024.11.26 10:41 Turbulent_Property_4 Star Wars: Ahsoka 2, il finale sarà definitivo per evitare il rischio di The Acolyte?
Secondo un nuovo rumor, Dave Filoni avrebbe modificato il finale di Ashoka 2 per evitare di fare lo stesso errore di The Acolyte.
La nuova stagione di Ahsoka, la serie televisiva live-action di Star Wars, potrebbe essere andata incontro a grossi cambiamenti dietro le quinte della sua pre-produzione, almeno stando alle ultime indiscrezioni.
Prosegui la lettura
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2024.11.26 10:41 JuggernautMother9901 School recommendations in HSR / Sarjapur area
Friends - My daughter will be 5 next year, and will be in Upper KG. We are looking for school recommendations for her in the HSSarjapur area - we stay near Kudlu gate, so looking in a 5-6k radius.
She has a creative bent, so we are looking for a school that has a balance of academics, extra-curriculars and sports. Something that exposes her to a variety of things in a positive environment, and allows her to blossom. Open to all boards but IG. Appreciate the inputs.
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2024.11.26 10:41 Fantastic_Deer_9148 So
If the Lady of the Lake was in Record of Ragnarök, How would you design her?
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2024.11.26 10:41 Special_Cantaloupe Down to meet?
Hello strangers of reddit. 29M from San Francisco and like many of you, I’m also in the mist of my solo travel era. Arguably, my favorite thing about solo traveling are the adventures, the stories, and the people. Truly coming to realize that I love connecting with strangers.
I think we all have a ton of lived experience and at this point in life, its not about the failures, mistakes, or even trauma we’ve been through but rather the growth we’ve made moving forward. I want to hear your story, what makes you… well you! Really interested in meeting like minded folks from different walks of life. I had some amazing success stories here and wanted to try for another!
This is a rather spontaneous trip. Literally booked my flight yesterday. My trip is pretty flexible but will use tokyo we a home base and travel around between 11/30 to 12/9 so let me know if you’re in the area! Would love to grab maybe a meal together.
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2024.11.26 10:41 Instigated_Wisedom Does every one else experience fraud on this site an insane amount?
Out of 4 purchases I’ve attempted this year 3 have been fraudulent. It’s incredibly frustrating when I try to buy something and then a day later I see the item relisted by that person and I’ve got to file another dispute with PayPal.
I wish the Depop team could authenticate sellers in a more legitimate manner to eliminate all this BS.
What’re your guys experiences with this and any pro tips to avoid it? On top of being annoyed I’ve experienced fraud it’s also a bummer to not receive the item I purchased
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2024.11.26 10:41 rusakovic 📩 Capital Project Manager Salary: 💰$105,280.00 - $164,500.00. 📍Remote job in 🇺🇸 United States
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2024.11.26 10:41 armyreco Israel to purchase hundreds of JLTV armored vehicles in major modernization effort
 | On November 24, 2024, the Israeli Ministry of Defense announced that the ministerial committee for equipping and power building approved several procurement and modernization projects for the Israel Defense Forces (IDF). These projects include replacing the Nirit (Saar 4.5) fleet and acquiring hundreds of Joint Light Tactical Vehicles (JLTVs), designated locally as "Para." The JLTV program was developed to replace the High Mobility Multipurpose Wheeled Vehicle (HMMWV or Humvee) and provide improved survivability and mobility. (Picture source: Oshkosh Defense) Read full defense news at this link: https://www.armyrecognition.com/news/army-news/army-news-2024/israel-to-purchase-hundreds-of-jltv-armored-vehicles-in-major-modernization-effort submitted by armyreco to WorldDefenseNews [link] [comments] |
2024.11.26 10:41 Apprehensive-Walk481 is this an autism trait?
I have suspected that I have (very) mild autism for a long time. My MD friend said I likely don't have it (too articulate... etc) but I know myself the best. Is the following be an autism trait?
I am easily overwhelmed by certain tasks that are not very intellectually demanding, especially the need to fill out complex forms for administrative purposes. This happens even with the knowledge that everything will be fine in the end. A day ago I had a couple of forms to fill and some paperwork to sort out, and I was on the verge of a breakdown all day. When the thing is done and minor issues solved, I felt so relieved. This happened also when I went abroad to live in a foreign country and had to deal with an unfamiliar tax system. Once I received the refunds from the tax offices I felt so elated that I resisted the urge to buy gifts as token of gratitude to the tax officers.
Or is the above rather normal?
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2024.11.26 10:41 Dull_Air6207 Any Arcane series enjoyer here?
Apa thoughts kamu untuk Act 3 dia? Sy rasa ending dia sangat perfect and open ended.. Thoughts for the series?
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2024.11.26 10:41 Ok-Organization-3501 Is it safe to store my macbook this way?
Hi guys,
Was wondering if this could lead to any trouble? It needs to be this way, for my cables to fit into my desk setup. Do you think it will cause any damage to the screen, since the entire laptop is on the screen?
Its a 2021 14 inch M1 model.
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2024.11.26 10:41 RedPacketSecurity [BIANLIAN] – Ransomware Victim: TWRU CPAs & Financial Advisors
![[BIANLIAN] – Ransomware Victim: TWRU CPAs & Financial Advisors](https://external-preview.redd.it/-tlR5Je00sq741gObbCzMLnEGKkDk4HbF3OJG_-5nIU.jpg?width=640&crop=smart&auto=webp&s=896c4a237cf1a2cf7a66b99e329ba548f31ca06e "[BIANLIAN] – Ransomware Victim: TWRU CPAs & Financial Advisors") | submitted by RedPacketSecurity to RedPacketSecurity [link] [comments] |
2024.11.26 10:41 51BoiledPotatos Best type of bread?
Garlic bread on top ngl
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2024.11.26 10:41 Dangerous-Hat-795 Bi beta looking for younger to pump and trade futa, hentai, and BWC. Discord: bwchoe ( will feed if bullied :3 )
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2024.11.26 10:41 esiy0676 Do you self-host in order to also customise your open source installs?
I just made a poll for Proxmox hypervisor in terms of willingness of users to customise it. (Feel free to vote if you use it, context there.)
But then this is a much wider question, whatever self-hosted you use, starting from even e.g. OS kernel. To what lenghts are you willing to go e.g. build sources with custom patches applied for your very own deployment?
I am wondering, if most of this "self-space" is just self-hosting the "canned" versions that come from the packages, or how much motivated you are - and based on what - to e.g. apply well-known or even bespoke own patches to your favourite self-hosted anything (and what it is).
And is this important part of self-hosting for you?
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2024.11.26 10:41 summerjns Do you think i'm cute enough? f19
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2024.11.26 10:41 Zealousideal_Sea_604 Permission to take in partner
I am currently living in Mainz and my partner is moving here from Canada soon. I have asked my landlord for permission to take her into my apartment and they have provided little to no reasoning for denying this request. Per my understanding of German tenancy law, I am essentially entitled to my partner moving in unless the landlord can provide sufficient reasoning for denying this and asking permission is more of a courtesy than anything. Does anyone know if I can provide my partner with wohnungsgeberbestätigung without my landlord knowing or if the city can assist me with this?
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2024.11.26 10:41 Key-Schedule-9369 Btech me kuch nahi hai...MBA kar
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2024.11.26 10:41 ReplacementFar7696 What Forex Broker do you use for trading?
I'm eye-ing on using Vantage. Is that a good broker? Thanks.
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2024.11.26 10:41 ThunderDoHisTasks64 I'm so happy that vs impostor alternated is back that I wanted to make a fan art
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2024.11.26 10:41 Original-Bottle-7001 HMRC Warns Self Assessment Customers: Stay Vigilant Against Tax Scams as Deadline Approaches
In a critical alert for UK taxpayers, HM Revenue and Customs (HMRC) is sounding the alarm on escalating fraudulent activities targeting Self Assessment customers
https://tscnewschannel.com/hmrc-warns-self-assessment-customers/
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2024.11.26 10:41 _-eve-_ Contraceptive options
Hi,
I’ve been told by my doctor that I need to stop taking the combined pill due to my migraines and she has recommended that I try the mini pill instead or opt for the implant or an IUD.
I’ve tried the mini pill before and it didn’t suit me. I’d be willing to try the bar but have heard too many horror stories about IUDs to ever want to get one.
Does anyone know any other migraine friendly options or have any advice?
Thanks in advance :)
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