My dad died and left me alone responsible for my three brother
2024.11.27 04:36 brishitospell My dad died and left me alone responsible for my three brother
I have so many guilt feelings about being resentful with him for not preparing us for this. Can I love him and still feel this way? I would give anything to have him back. I pretend he is not dead most of the time. I talk to him in my mind while I do stuff. We didn't have much in common, we bonded over not many things but one of them was food. I love cooking and pastry, so everytime I make a recipe, I talk to him in my head (and a lot of times it ends up being out loud) about what I am doing. Then at times reality hits. He is dead. We will never have this conversations made up in my head. I will not get a second chance to grow our relationship, to tell him the uncomfortable things to say. I made my mistakes as a daughter, and now I can't go back in time. I am almost 25, but still feel like a kid. I don't know how to be an adult, and suddenly I have to figure it out. I cannot stop wishing I had a real adult in the picture to tell me what to do, to support me. And I cannot help but feel resentful. For not letting us a family, for choosing a drug addict as a mom who is not in the picture. For having not one, but 3 kids with her. For not planning our future. For not leaving us a single cent. For making me responsible of paying rent and feeding 3 growing boys with my cleaning job all of the sudden. I don't know how to deal with all these feelings, if it is right or normal for people in my situation to feel this way. And I have to pretend nothing is happening most of the time so my brothers don't get scared. But just like the feelings, bills pdf pill up on my phone and so their needs, and no amount of overtime seems to be enough. I see no light after the tunnel. I just have to hope it will get better. But it is really hard when you don't know how you will put food on the fridge the next week. How can I no feel resentful? Leukemia I hate you.
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2024.11.27 04:36 Intrepid-Ad-9236 Looking for answers
Hi people, I see a lot of posts in this sub to spit at Indians, maybe there are other races being spat at and I didn't notice because I'm indian. But some of the posts are obviously made to insult Indians. Why do you people hate Indians so much? Did someone do something to you? Or someone close to you? Or is it like "they hate , I hate" kind of situation? From what I understand only Malays are native to this country. everyone else are migrants. Who benefit from spreading this hate? Like those news from India, it doesn't mean anything to the people here.. but just bring up here to laugh at a particular ethnicity? Why?
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2024.11.27 04:36 Rare_Dig6375 Offroading in defender 90
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2024.11.27 04:36 LiveEvil0404 Need people for my survey! For academic purposes. (All ages)
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2024.11.27 04:36 AlexanderJD03 What do you guys think of this stick?
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2024.11.27 04:36 Ricky_is_bored I have alot of problems with hardcore (camping nonestop) but this is the worst
I cannot count the amount of times I've been killed in hardcore BY MY OWN TEAMMATES, just so they can take my care package from me. An entire killstreak stollen over and over. I wish there would be a thing where your care package is refunded if a teammate steals it from you or something. Idk what do you guys think?
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2024.11.27 04:36 Old_Insurance7177 Need help
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2024.11.27 04:36 RoyalGuardLink Wonder what there really were?
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2024.11.27 04:36 mani_meow anyone who sleepwalks/talks in sleep/similar stuff?
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2024.11.27 04:36 deadrobindownunder Who needs desk space when you can have LAMP!
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2024.11.27 04:36 Real-Berry-1616 What's the most embarrassing thing that's ever happened to you in public?
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2024.11.27 04:36 TheMissingCitizen Sharing one of my Darkie drawings |TheMissingCitizen
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2024.11.27 04:36 markow202 Soundcheck has improved
I don’t know if it’s me but I found soundcheck has improved I know it was always a “volume control only” but the fidelity of it in use with high quality AAC files is stable, aswell as the volumes per tracks. Anyone else notice or use it?
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2024.11.27 04:36 enforcernz Should I see a doctor if a small penile cyst popped
M22 184cm, Should I see a doctor if a small penile cyst popped on its own
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2024.11.27 04:36 fluffykenz Help!
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2024.11.27 04:36 oddhotelverse 2024 vs 2022 design comparison
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2024.11.27 04:36 Frosty11y66 pt2. the trilogy
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2024.11.27 04:36 MainEventMarks Asking for Overall Advice for Novices
I currently live stream on YouTube, Rumble, Facebook, and Kick. I currently do that through Rumble Studio because it’s the only way I know to freely multi-stream. However, that means I can’t have the custom borders and signage I use in my VODs. The program I have that allows me to have that signage can only stream to 1 place at a time. Is there a free program that will allow me to have a custom border & signage while multi-streaming, or would I have to pay for something like that?
Also, as of now, my streams consist of my going over the latest news in entertainment and media, but I’d like to eventually do some gaming streams. I haven’t the slightest clue how to do that. Are there free programs that would help me get started? Would a standard computer work for that?
Any and all advice would be appreciated. Thanks!
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2024.11.27 04:36 Joeybfast Challenged had such good acting.
Challenged had some incredible acting! I was watching an episode, I believe from season 19, and I was blown away by how well it was done. The actors portraying characters with special needs did an outstanding job. Aside from one character's unique ability to recall all the license plates which does happen but is very rare, the portrayal of individuals with mental illnesses was particularly impressive. It was handled with such skill and authenticity. Like for second or two, I was thinking these people were really special. Like man that first run of a L&O had so fine acting . My goodness. Like those people should get Oscars (or whatever they give TV people)
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2024.11.27 04:36 Legitimate-Target-10 Lost my ID
Traveling to Cancun Mexico next week but just lost my state ID! Will I be able to fly without it 😭😭 I have my passport.
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2024.11.27 04:36 Murky_Reindeer_1717 LLBRUH
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2024.11.27 04:36 Fickle_Philosopher60 New start
I am a new start on a flexible contract as I can’t work Sundays I started last week and worked 2 8 hours shifts then I wasn’t scheduled in for nearly a week then I had another 2 8 hour shifts then 1 6 hour shifts just wondering will i be scheduled to work 5 days a week or because I’m still a new start I’ll only get the hours until after probation
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2024.11.27 04:36 Cold_Designer_6902 new cat mom here, advice on kitten diet required. help!
I have a 3 month old kitten, I feed her cat food and boiled chicken everyday on her vets advice. But the internet said I shouldnt be doing that.
I want you guys to give me advice on whether her current diet is fine. Looking forward to all cat moms and cat dads advice! Thankyou!
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