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2024.11.29 10:36 Last_Combination_946 [crash team racing] First platinum chat
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2024.11.29 10:36 Own_Nose_7587 We are changed who will agree ?
The time when i was a kid i know how much i'm mad just becoz of games like vice city and mfs mw 2005 and some more older games with no high qualtiy graphics and i love to play games still it is lagging but the enjoyment i get from that games now didn't have again in high graphics latest game what is this i can't understand even i have nice gaming laptop and previously i knew how i play in lower resolutios to make them playable but the entertainment is gone the excitment is not like before :(
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2024.11.29 10:36 Kissing13 Rubin & Ed (1991) starring Crispin Glover and Howard Hessman
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2024.11.29 10:36 aKebabcom 9€ Lammspieß #Kebab #Fyp #Berlin
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2024.11.29 10:36 Away_Gear_14 How do I deal with old hangups (without "go to therapy")?
Had a chat with a buddy, and it came up how I feel that any partner is always a simple "upgrade" away from leaving you. Not in any incel way, I'm not trying to gender this.
My past experience tells me that this is simply so. Not that everyone is like this, but it is always on the table. Always potentially so. Caught my first girlfriend with another guy. We tried to move on, but she left me, and next thing I know she was dating that guy I "wasn't supposed to worry about". Next person I was seeing over several months turned out to simply not be exclusive (which was news to me, but that's on me for assuming I guess), and she settled with someone else she was also seeing. I don't feel crazy for feeling the way I do, I would in fact feel crazy for denying my experience to influence my view.
The logical way is to of course improve myself, become so good people wouldn't want to "replace me". And by god I'm trying. Isn't life just trying to be the best you every single day? But there will always be someone richer, smarter, prettier, more self confident. Someone who gambled and won, someone who never failed, or someone who got more gracefully back on the horse. Someone who is just apparently "better".
I'm generally quite a bit behind in life. Mental health got me down in my early twenties (still does) and I'm still recovering. Still catching up, and I suspect I always will be working to catch up. Will be 31 by the time I get my degree, and I'm many years behind a lot my peers in relationship experience. I can only do so much to catch up, and I struggle to believe anyone would accept me with my flaws and failures, if they have the option of someone who lacks those.
I was told in that conversation that I should work on the feeling that getting replaced is a near inevitability. And I guess I should, because it's not bringing me closer to people, only making me less likely to get hurt by being cautious and reluctant. I am thankfully heading to therapy soon, but I cannot waste it on things like this as it is meant to address some more serious things. So how do I deal with this? Or am I not crazy at all, and should this be how I view things?
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2024.11.29 10:36 RevolutionaryWar5474 LEAVING MED SCHOOL AFTER FIRST SEMESTER
Life has an extraordinary way of guiding us to where we truly belong, even when the path seems uncertain. For much of my life, I believed that becoming a doctor was my ultimate calling. As a registered medical technologist, I saw med school as the natural progression of my journey, a way to grow and contribute more profoundly to the healthcare field. So, at 24, I entered med school with excitement and determination, ready to take on the challenge. But as the first semester passed, something deep within me began to shift. The passion I expected to feel for medicine wasn’t there, and instead, I found myself longing for something I thought I had left behind. It was a quiet realization at first, but it soon became impossible to ignore: my heart belonged to medical technology, and I needed to honor that truth.
Choosing between med tech and medicine felt like standing at a crossroads, each path leading to a vastly different future. Medicine was the grand, winding road, full of prestige and admiration, but med tech was the steady, familiar trail that felt like HOME. It was like standing in a field of beautiful blossoms where one humble flower captured my heart. That flower was med tech—grounded, resilient, and essential. It didn’t demand the spotlight, but it carried a quiet strength and purpose that spoke to me deeply. I realized that while medicine might seem like the more celebrated choice, med tech was the one that truly fulfilled me. It was the foundation I had built my career on, and it was where I knew I could make the most meaningful impact.
Leaving med school was not a decision I made lightly, but it was one I made with certainty. I had invested so much hope and effort into the idea of becoming a doctor, but the more I thought about it, the clearer it became that medicine was no longer my passion. I didn’t want to spend years chasing a dream that wasn’t truly mine. Instead, I wanted to embrace the career that I loved, the one that had given me so much joy and purpose. As a medical technologist, I found fulfillment in the precision of the lab, the satisfaction of uncovering answers, and the knowledge that my work was vital to patient care.
This realization gave my dreams a new direction, one that feels more meaningful and fulfilling than ever. My ultimate goal now is to serve and connect with people through public health by providing accurate and reliable diagnostic test results that can significantly impact their treatment and well-being. Beyond that, I want to continue advancing my knowledge in medical technology by attending seminars and training sessions that will enhance my skills and expertise. In three years, I plan to take my career abroad, specifically to the United States, where I can immerse myself in diverse and complex cases of diseases. This experience will not only allow me to grow professionally but also give me the opportunity to provide the best possible life for my mom and dad, whose sacrifices and support have shaped the person I am today.
Looking back, I’m incredibly grateful for this journey because it taught me so much about myself. Med school wasn’t a mistake—it was a stepping stone that helped me rediscover my true passion. It showed me what I value most and gave me the courage to pursue it wholeheartedly. I’m proud to call myself a medical technologist and to build a future in a field that feels like home. Life doesn’t always go the way we plan, but sometimes, the detours lead us exactly where we’re meant to be.
Now, as I stand firmly on the path I’ve chosen, I feel a sense of peace and purpose like never before. My love for medical technology is unwavering, and I’m excited to see where this journey will take me. To anyone facing a similar choice, I hope my story reminds you to trust your instincts and follow your heart. The road may not always be easy, but when you find the path that truly resonates with you, it’s worth every step. For me, that path is in the med tech lab, contributing to public health, and making a real difference in people’s lives. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
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2024.11.29 10:36 Available-Turnip8241 How to save my friend
For context, me and one of my best if not my best bro have been friends sinds we were 8, we are now 20 but I am currently ghosting him and not talking to him anymore. We used to be real rascals and get in trouble. then when we got to around 16/17 we started talking to babes and wingmanned eachother in doing so. We loved going out for drinks when we turned 18 and loved hooking up with chicks. But a few months ago he started to change. His outfits suddenly became way more feminine everytime i saw him and he had no interest in hooking up with girls and being a real man like we always wanted to. our deep conversations about our views and the kind of man we wanted to become were impossible suddenly. He became very gothic with girl clothes in a span of a few months. he deyed his hair purple and he started to hang out with the kind of people we always laughed at. After sometime i realized it was about some gothic girl who completely changed his views and appearance. He became very far left winged and I couldn't even make jokes around him anymore. He also stated that he might be a "Bi" Or "Asexual". I don't have anything against those people and have never had problem with it. But I don't think I can hangout with a Dude like that. I feel like he got corrupted by his girl and the woke community. I knew his old self was still somewhere in that shadow of a man, so a few days ago I asked him if he wanted to go hangout and maybe hard drink and hit the town like the old days. he hesistated but agreed. It sucked, very hard and the night was no fun, it felt like I was hanging out with some random Femboy ive never met in my life. Even my parents were shocked to see him like that. So around 1am I confronted him about his weird behavior and that he shouldnt change who he is because of 1 girl, if he truly felt like that he should continue like that but if its because of a girl he needed to man up and break up. He then got really angry and said that he is just as much a man as me. I replied with "you are 10 percent of the man you once was and 1 percent of the man you wanted to become, how can you look your children in the eye like that when you grow up". I thought that might break through to him but he got angry af. he charged at me saying i am the problem. He pushed me against the wall and said that he is with "the love of his life and im ruining it". I couldnt take his bs anymore so I bareknucle punched him. He cried and left my house. He tried texting me yesterday but I feel like he is a lost cause. I guess that gothic girl got the best of him.
What should I do ?
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2024.11.29 10:36 PalmySocks169 £1000 UK Gaming/Work PC
£1000 UK Gaming/Work PC Budget
I made a post a while ago - the comments were really helpful so I thought I’d make a new parts list for people to critique if possible :) looking to buy today so any Black Friday deals are much appreciated. I have copied the text down below
https://uk.pcpartpicker.com/list/DNTyXR
Hi, I'm a console gamer that is looking to buy a PC for mostly playing less demanding games like Lethal Company and standard horror games, also old games like Warhammer 40k Dark Crusade and Battle for Middle Earth 2, to be specific. It doesn't need to have the highest-end graphics as the more demanding games (Elden Ring/Space Marine) would be played on my Xbox. This said, if its within the budget I would also like games such as Minecraft and Skyrim to run well with mods. I've been looking at this PC part builder website but I don't really know what I'm looking for. Any pointers on what I would spend more money on/less money on would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for the help!
- New build or upgrade?
- Existing parts/monitors to reuse? (List with models/links)
- PC purpose? (Gaming, editing, etc. List apps/games)
- Purchase country? Near Micro Center? (If you're not in a country supported by PCPartPicker, please list some local vendors)
- Monitors needed? (Number, size, resolution, refresh rate)
- Budget range? (Include tax considerations)
- WiFi or wired connection?
- Size/noise constraints?
- Cololighting preferences?
- Any other specific needs?
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2024.11.29 10:36 Puzzleheaded-Plan159 Curious about Pegasus2 R6
I have one of these sitting around from an old job and am curious if I might be able to repurpose it for a current home office storage solution.
- I’m curious if I can use 4tb or 6tb drives in the slots to maximize my storage capacity or am I stuck with 2tbs across the board?
- I’m working mostly as an editor and directing a lot of YouTube type content atm, so which raid configuration should I aim for? I’m probably not doing enough backups so something that could act as its own backup would probably be most ideal. I’m new to understanding raids and am mostly relying on youtube and forums atm to figure all this out.
Thanks!
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2024.11.29 10:36 glassofmilkk I posted earlier about needing 3 partners for the race event, and I found them, but I have a newer account that also needs 3 partners, if anyone is still looking?
Name is Charlotte, here is my link! Add me if interested 😊 I have about 2k dice and roughly 1k flags, for now. But like I said it is a newer account.
CHARLOTTE: MGO769CCX988 https://mply.io/UkKZgrqKu7Y
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2024.11.29 10:36 itsbandobaby29 😋
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2024.11.29 10:36 Hour_Education9194 Sophie Rain making more money than an NBA star! Is this the new norm for disparities ?
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2024.11.29 10:36 boymoded What's the best piercings to get to make my big nose look smaller?
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2024.11.29 10:36 Aeroeleib Investement for a better twitter
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2024.11.29 10:36 SnooMuffins9844 How Shopify Reduced Metrics Resources by 75%
FULL DISCLAIMER: This is an article I wrote that I thought you'd find interesting. It's only a short read, under 5 minutes. I'd love to know your thoughts. ---
Shopify launched in 2006, and in 2023, made over $7 billion in revenue, with 5.6 million active stores.
That's almost as much as the population of Singapore.
But with so many stores, it's essential to ensure they feel quick to navigate through and don't go down.
So, the team at Shopify created a system from scratch to monitor their infrastructure.
Here's exactly how they did it.
Shopify's Bespoke System Shopify didn't always have its own system. Before 2021, it used different third-party services for logs, metrics, and traces.
But as it scaled, things started to get very expensive. The team also struggled to collect and share data across the different tools.
So they decided to build their own observability tool, which they called Observe.
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As you can imagine, a lot of work from many different teams went into building the backend of Observe. But the UI was actually built on top of Grafana.
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Sidenote: Grafana Grafana is an open-source observability tool*. It focuses on visualizing data from different sources using interactive dashboards.*
Say you have a web application that stores its log data in a database. You give Grafana access to the data and create a dashboard to visually understand the data*.*
Of course, you would have to host Grafana yourself to share the dashboard. That's the advantage, or disadvantage, of open-source software.
Although Grafana is open-source, it allows users to extend its functionality with plugins*. This works without needing to change the core Grafana code.*
This is how Shopify was able to build Observe on top of it. And use its visualization ability to display their graphs.
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Observe is a tool for monitoring and observability. This article will focus on the metrics part.
Although it has 5.6 million active stores, at most, Shopify collects metrics from 1 million endpoints. An endpoint is a component that can be monitored, like a server or container. Let me explain.
Like many large-scale applications, Shopify runs on a distributed cloud infrastructure. This means it uses servers in many locations around the world. This makes the service fast and reliable for all users.
The infrastructure also scales based on traffic. So if there are many visits to Shopify, more servers get added automatically.
All 5.6 million stores share this same infrastructure.
Shopify usually has around a hundred thousand monitored endpoints. But this could grow up to one million at peak times. Considering a regular company would have around 100 monitored endpoints, 1 million is incredibly high.
Even after building Observe the team struggled to handle this many endpoints.
More Metrics, More Problems The Shopify team used an architecture for collecting metrics that was pretty standard.
Kubernetes to manage their applications and Prometheus to collect metrics.
In the world of Prometheus, a monitored endpoint is called a target. And In the world of Kubernetes, a server runs in a container that runs within a pod.
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Sidenote: Prometheus Prometheus is an open-source, metrics-based monitoring system*.*
It works by scraping or pulling metrics data from an application instead of the application pushing or giving data to Prometheus.
To use Prometheus on a server, you'll need to use a metrics exporter like prom-client for Node.
This will collect metrics like memory and CPU usage and store them in memory on the application server.
The Prometheus server pulls the in-memory metrics data every 30 seconds and stores it in a time series database (TSDB).
From there, you can view the metrics data using the Prometheus web UI or a third-party visualization tool like Grafana.
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There are two ways to run Prometheus*: server mode and agent mode.*
Server mode is the mode explained above that has the Prometheus server, database, and web UI.
Agent mode is designed to collect and forward the metrics to any storage solution. So a developer can choose any storage solution that accepts Prometheus metrics.
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The team had many Prometheus agent pods in a replication set. A replication set makes sure a specific number of pods are running at any given time.
Each Prometheus agent would be assigned a percentage of total targets. They use the Kubernetes API to check which targets are assigned to them.
Then search through all the targets to find theirs.
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You can already see what kind of problems would arise with this approach when it comes to scaling.
- Lots of new targets could cause an agent to run out of memory and crash.
- Distributing targets by percentage is uneven. One target could be a huge application with 100 metrics to track. While another could be small and have just 4.
Around 50% of an agent's resources were being used just to discover targets.
Each agent had to go through up to 1 million targets to find the ones assigned to them. So, each pod is doing the exact same piece of work which is wasteful.
To fix this, the team had to destroy and rebuild Prometheus.
Breaking Things Down Since discovery was taking up most of the resources, they removed it from the agents. How?
They went through all the code for a Prometheus agent. Took out the code related to discovery and put it in its own service.
But they didn't stop there.
They gave these discovery services the ability to scrape all targets every two minutes.
This was to check exactly how many metrics targets had so they could be shared evenly.
They also built an operator service. This managed the Prometheus agents and received scraped data from discovery pods.
The operator will check if an agent has the capacity to handle the targets; if it did, it will distribute them. If not, it will create a new agent.
You can already see what kind of problems would arise with this approach when it comes to scaling.
- Lots of new targets could cause an agent to run out of memory and crash.
- Distributing targets by percentage is uneven. One target could be a huge application with 100 metrics to track. While another could be small and have just 4.
Around 50% of an agent's resources were being used just to discover targets.
Each agent had to go through up to 1 million targets to find the ones assigned to them. So, each pod is doing the exact same piece of work which is wasteful.
To fix this, the team had to destroy and rebuild Prometheus.
Breaking Things Down Since discovery was taking up most of the resources, they removed it from the agents. How?
They went through all the code for a Prometheus agent. Took out the code related to discovery and put it in its own service.
But they didn't stop there.
They gave these discovery services the ability to scrape all targets every two minutes.
This was to check exactly how many metrics targets had so they could be shared evenly.
They also built an operator service. This managed the Prometheus agents and received scraped data from discovery pods.
The operator will check if an agent has the capacity to handle the targets; if it did, it will distribute them. If not, it will create a new agent.
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These changes alone reduced resource usage by 33%. A good improvement, but they did better.
The team had many discovery pods to distribute the load and for the process to keep running if one pod crashed. But they realized each pod was still going through all the targets.
So they reduced it to just one pod but also added what they called discovery workers. These were responsible for scraping targets.
The discovery pod will discover targets then put the target in a queue to be scraped. The workers pick a target from the queue and scrape its metrics.
The worker then sends the data to the discovery pod, which then sends it to the operator.
Of course, the number of workers could be scaled up or down as needed.
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The workers could also filter out unhealthy targets. These are targets that are unreachable or do not respond to scrape requests.
This further change reduced resource use by a whopping 75%.
Wrapping Things Up This is a common pattern I see when it comes to solving issues at scale. Break things down to their basic pieces, then build them back up.
All the information from this post was from a series of internal YouTube videos about Observe that were made public. I'm glad Shopify did this so others can learn from it.
Of course, there is more information in this video than what this article provides, so please check it out.
And if you want the next Hacking Scale article sent straight to your inbox, go ahead and subscribe. You won't be disappointed.
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2024.11.29 10:36 No_Medium_7914 i’ve got these treats of amazon
 | Hi , i’ve got these treats of amazon and in the description they said 2 a day maximum . my hamster is absolutely obsessed with them but i’m starting to think maybe 2 a day is to much . i have a syrian hamster and i normally give her one a day but can someone give me some advice on those cookies for hamsters ? they also said they help with their teeth. submitted by No_Medium_7914 to hamsters [link] [comments] |
2024.11.29 10:36 noshitsherlock45 Anybody who is younger 16 and younger feels like a baby 🛩
Like so small.
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2024.11.29 10:36 Informal_Block_6212 Is there hope for people with mental illness?
For a long time I wanted to go back to public school because I was struggling mentally while I was stuck at home. I believed that if I returned to public school, my mental health would improve. It did improve, and I learned a lot of things as well, but now it's starting to decline again. My grammar and spelling is progressively becoming worse, and I've noticed that my social skills are actually deteriorating instead of improving in a lot of ways. I'm also having a hard time understanding what I'm thinking or saying, and I'm not sure if people can understand me when I talk to them, or if it all just comes out as nonsense.
I became a highschool freshman in august of this year, but also attended middle school for a few weeks before the summer started. Recently I have reached an all time low in terms of motivation, and every will I've ever had to do literally anything has died. I started off highschool with solid grades, and had grades of above 90% in the majority of my classes, but I've given up on actually trying in school and my grades are going down. It was hard to get to this point. I struggled with school during second grade, and thats when my parents started to homeschool me. I had a very limited to zero education, and my parents told me I could never do it if I went back to school and that I was too behind, but with a lot of work I proved them wrong. I'm stuck in a mindset of "just let the world kill you". I've stopped thinking about what I'm going to say and just say it without thinking instead, and I just do the first thing that comes to mind with everything, and whenever I don't want to do something I don't do it. My phsycial health is being affected by this mindset because I stop trying to take care of myself and just do whatever I feel like doing. I rarely eat outside of school lunches, which can't be healthy. When I was homeschooled, I also didn't eat a lot.
I don't try at anything anymore. I'm bad at all of my (few) hobbies and have no urge to get better at them. The only classes that I've had a stable grade in is history and math, and in history I just guess everything and get it right or leave really vague answers and somehow also get it right. In math my grade is stable but I'm terrified of running into something thats too hard and getting screwed. If my grades go down in those classes... I'm afraid of the depression that will follow, but have no urge to try and stop it. I don't want to stay back, because given my situation, I think it will be traumatizing.
I have violent fantasies... Extremely violent and sadistic fatasies, especially against women, and- Vulnerable people. Despite my extremely concerning fantasies, I don't feel any urge to act on them, and I seem to be a relatively calm, non-violent person. No matter what I try, the result is always misery at one point or another. I tried going to school, and hell, I've even had to live in 3 different homes due to CPS, so my home life might not be the reason as to why my mental health sucks. No matter what I do, no matter where I live, no matter how good or bad my life is, it feels like I will always be conditioned to struggle mentally. I always regret posting something as soon as I post it, because reading and writing calms me down a lot. I need help. I just know its going to get so much worse. Is there a solution?
Also, does anyone else have parents that get/got mad at you or act disappointed at you for getting a poor grade on something despite them educationally neglecting you for a long time? It's an extremely upsetting feeling in my opinion. The whole time they homeschooled me they repeatedly told me that I could never do it if I went back to public school, and it feels horrible whenever my parents look at me funnily whenever I get score below an 85 on something, and yell at me whenever I fail. It just feels terrible.
I have a feeling I may have a mental illness that is going untreated, but even if I don't, I just want the misery to end. I don't even care. My mental health will never improve on its own. It never has, and never will. Maybe it has temporarily, but whenever I do feel happy or hopeful for a few days, its just teasing me. I don't even know what I should do. Throughout the years I have asked my parents if I could go to therapy a few times. They said I had to have a "talk with them first", but just asking them in the first place is very hard. I remember one time I tried to talk with my mom about it. I didn't know what to say and just said random stuff like "I think I really need therapy", but she didn't seem to take me seriously and didn't really say anything. I think she repeated what I said or something, like "you need therapy?", but thats it. I tried another time years later after crying a lot, and she promised she would try to find me a therapist, but she forgot about it and never did. Now I just don't want to talk to them at all. Either they try to use it as an incentive for me to be more responsible, use it against eachother when fighting, or not take me seriously.
Also, something I will never forget is the fact that its nearly impossible to go a day in school without someone asking me if I'm feeling okay... If I'm so visibly depressed, why do my parents not care...? Why do my parents choose to ignore obvious signs of struggling and yell at me instead? I usually try to avoid them whenever I can at home, but its impossible that they've noticed nothing. Idk. Maybe i've been subconciously using school as an outlet for my depressed feelings, but I'm not sure. After all, at least when I'm at school people care. I don't want anyones sympathy though, it usually makes me feel like a piece of trash whenever someone asks if I'm okay. Like I think that when some asks if I'm okay I'm being manipulative or something. My mom often calls me manipulative when I act depressed in front of her.
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2024.11.29 10:36 icyspicy3825 People who messed up cat(less than 80 Pecentile) and now targeting nmat/snap/xat- Assemble
What is the plan of action now? Cat is done. Let's forget it. Think about what's next. What colleges can we target using xat, nmat. How are we gonna prepare for omets?what forms do we have to fill? Are u all interested in forming a group specifically for us?
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2024.11.29 10:36 ahotmess99 I don’t want a relationship
I want the illusion of one. Relationships scare me. I want the good morning beautiful texts. The flirty banter. The butterflies. The witty humor. Sharing of music. The falling for you smiles. Checking my phone to see if they messaged.
I don’t want the commitment. Been there done that. Never ends well.
So one thing happens when one of two things takes place. I run I hide I disappear into the wind when either one falls for one another. (I always say goodbye) when they disappear it’s crickets. Which whatever.
This all happens online and I pick people in places I will never travel to, or can’t transfer for work. I have never met someone. Even if they offer to travel to me I always make an excuse as to why I can’t make time.
So with that being said, I have to find something that lasts more than 2/3 days. Every 2/3 days is a new guy. A new smile. New butterflies.
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