[for hire] COMMISSIONS OPEN - I do semi-realistic illustrations. Contact me if you are interested here or on my IG: @Kah_Swan
2024.11.29 14:40 KahSwan [for hire] COMMISSIONS OPEN - I do semi-realistic illustrations. Contact me if you are interested here or on my IG: @Kah_Swan
![[for hire] COMMISSIONS OPEN - I do semi-realistic illustrations. Contact me if you are interested here or on my IG: @Kah_Swan](https://b.thumbs.redditmedia.com/jPgQZchtYxCRoz87d_mhVnVp5RVe7eBYlPGlmJ5a8ig.jpg "[for hire] COMMISSIONS OPEN - I do semi-realistic illustrations. Contact me if you are interested here or on my IG: @Kah_Swan") | submitted by KahSwan to artstore [link] [comments] |
2024.11.29 14:40 i_fartedonyourpillow when will this end😭😭
i went from 5 mg to nothing about 2 days ago and the withdrawal symptoms are absolutely annihilating me. how long until the worst of it is over???
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2024.11.29 14:40 Iggy_LC Background play
Background play has been buggy for me today. Do you all have the same experience?
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2024.11.29 14:40 Loud_Ad_7053 I don't think we're going to make it
My husband (35m) and I (31f) have been married for 2.5 years, together 4.5 years. We were friends and basically always in love with each other for 8 years before finally getting together. When we finally began dating it made so much sense. We got along perfectly: I was the black cat and he was the golden retriever. We were best friends. I remembered being told our relationship would always work because he liked me more than I liked him. That was true until I started calling him on his bullshit.
My husband has had plenty of substance abuse problems since I've known him - alcohol, Adderall, Xanax, magic mushrooms, cocaine. At first this was in college so I didn't think much of it as at our school everyone was doing it. But as we got older, he didn't shed these substances and the dependence became glaringly obvious. I was not equipped to handle this. Over time the lying, gaslighting, and predictability of how messed up he would be every time we socialized drove me insane. I became co-dependent, controlling, angry, hateful, cynical, and I guess just generally disgusted and embarrassed by his behavior. He couldn't even play a round of golf with a friend without taking Adderall, drinking too much, and coming home a mess.
There are plenty of things that I've learned now that I wish I had known then, like don't ask questions you already know the answer to and don't engage. But I didn't know this, and I thought I could fix it. Endless, nasty fights. I would secretly record our conversations because I was getting so confused and losing my sense of reality that I'd have to listen to the recordings in the morning to remind myself that I'm not crazy. I would get so disoriented as he'd weave this web of lies around me, and often times wouldn't let me disengage, that I'd snap. There are times where I've pushed him, slapped him, said the meanest things to him. I am disgusted with myself and how I allowed myself to get to this point. And the next morning he'd want to snuggle and resume as normal. At the beginning I'd want to talk it out, apologize, work out a plan for how we would avoid this in the future, but eventually I got tired and just played along.
I knew something scary was happening, and he wasn't just simply lying. I had heard the word "gaslight" but there was one day that it clicked for me. He came home from golf one day, clearly messed up, and made a point to tell me he was completely sober (I didn't ask), and he demanded I breathalyze him so he could prove to me that he was sober. He blew a .11 and immediately lashed out about how awful I am and basically how much I suck and still insisted that he was sober. He then used that as an excuse to go to a friend's house and stayed the night there. We both ended up apologizing to one another.
He bendered his way through all three of my pregnancies, which all ended in miscarriages, which was then just another excuse to bender. He wanted to take time off of drinking and drugs to get healthy to try for a baby? This somehow became my problem because he hadn't seen his friends in a while. Cue the bender. One of my friends even attributed one of his particularly bad nights to his sadness of my latest miscarriage. Little did she know he started a fight with me on the second day of my miscarriage pill and went on a 24hr bender the next morning. But of course, it's me. Though I know I always play a role, I felt that was a bit unfair.
I completely pulled away from friends, which became a point he used against my in arguments. I'm no longer social enough. I've always been more of an introvert, but by this point I was barely responding in group chats; seeing friends once, maybe twice a month. As a girl who loves a good night out every so often, I became so turned off by socializing in general because it always lead to a fight. I'd only go out with friends when he was out of town - and I'd have the time of my life. I didn't have to worry about him and could let loose and have fun. I just wanted to protect him. I knew our friends could see what was happening, but he told me they thought that I was the problem. He still tries to tell me this, but fortunately I now know this is not true.
Of course he's miserable with me. I'm the nagging, boring wife. Even though I'd always tell him "have the best time!" and not text him for the rest of the night and wouldn't talk to him until he came home in the early hours of the morning blabbering nonsense. If I wasn't so controlling he wouldn't be like this. I knew rationally that I was not to blame for his behaviors, but being told so many times that he overdid it because he's just bored with me eventually settled in my brain.
We took a 2 month break over the summer and he seems to have a better grip on the substances, but now there are issues with his family that are affecting him, and it just seems endless. I can see the drugs creeping back in. There is so much scar tissue on both ends. He misses the fun, easy going girl I used to be. But I can't include his actions in any reason for that girl being gone or he gets frustrated. I am so remorseful for the slaps, the lashing out, the vitriol I've spewed at him. I have been in therapy working on controlling my emotions among many other things. It's been so helpful. He's not in therapy, and has gotten too messed up a few times in the past 2 months, said some cruel things, but I've taken it all in silence and let him feel like an ass the next morning. That control over my response is very empowering. I disengage as often as I can. But I found a few Adderall the other day, he lied, and I found myself back in the mental trenches. I lost control over my emotions again and became a screaming, crying mess, to which he snickered and said "there's that anger."
I can't even bring up my feelings because he takes it as an attack, no matter how many "I feel" phrases I use to try to NOT make him feel attacked. He gets defensive and shuts me down, which only makes me try harder to be heard. And so we have it, I'm starting another fight. I wish he'd stop listening to respond and listen to understand. Gosh, conversations would be so much more productive and simple! Instead, if I say I'm hot, he'll start handing me blankets because he thinks I said I'm cold. And then an argument ensues over what was actually said. It's like we're having two completely conversations. To note, he does not see the point in couples therapy, even if it means simply having a translator.
I am so in love with the man I get at home, cozy in his pajamas, silly and happy at home. I KNOW that man enjoys my company. He gets excited to see me, he giggles at what I say, we have great conversation. I am so enamored with that man, but I don't want a relationship like this. I want to be my best self. I want to be excited to have children, not be scared of sending my husband into a bender that somehow falls on me. Could you at least be there for me for a few days as I lose another baby? Damn. I'm tired of being told that every mistake he makes is because he is miserable with me. Am I really that bad? I know I handled everything terribly, but I just wanted the best for him. I'm tired of hurting the person I love. I don't care if my therapist says it's reactive abuse. I want no part in that cycle. Even though we've had a great time together these past few weeks, which he says himself, he's still able to switch up on me and say he's still miserable. I just want to be happy. I want him to be happy, and it's very evident he is not with me. He's so tired of me and my feelings, and has so much scar tissue from the things I've said and done. I've got a lawyer, we've discussed divorce, I just can't believe we're here and it seems so avoidable. When we first started dating I was elated - this was going to be a piece of cake and the best relationship ever.
I'm just devastated. When I first met with my lawyer she said "goodness gracious you are so beautiful, I can have a line of eligible bachelors lined up for you tomorrow." And I'm only now realizing how much I have lost my confidence and how terribly I feel about myself. Each time I go out with friends, at least a few men talk to me, like really "zone in" on me, and I still just wish my husband was there. I want that attention from him. Where's the cool, confident, and fun girl I used to be and how do I find her again? I wish it didn't have to involve leaving my husband. I don't want to leave my husband, but he has made it clear he no longer wants to be with me. I just feel like, all of that? just to end up here? My heart is so broken.
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2024.11.29 14:40 Any_Fortune_1811 french apple cake 🍎
 | My fiancé is coming home this weekend so I thought I’d make something to celebrate. Here’s the link to the recipe: https://www.sonntagsistkaffeezeit.de/franzoesischer-apfelkuchen-so-einfach-geht-e submitted by Any_Fortune_1811 to Baking [link] [comments] |
2024.11.29 14:40 stokedfeels Need help valuing this ERROR $20 1915 Gold Coin
 | My friend has this $20 gold coin from 1915 and says that this is an error coin as the sides were stamped upside down. I personally am not a coin collector. I would like some help from the community in terms of what value he's looking at and where he may be able to sell it. Thank you. submitted by stokedfeels to coincollecting [link] [comments] |
2024.11.29 14:40 ConsiderationGlad483 Golden Car #61 - Lamborghini Diablo GT
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2024.11.29 14:40 Rameli18 Alquilar una casa/dpto en Buenos Aires es la perdición misma.
A veces quiero llorar de bronca porque pagar una vivienda (alquiler) prácticamente se lleva más del 70% de mí sueldo. Es un atascamiento para progresa ahorrainvertir. Me agota no sólo en lo económico sino mental y anímicamente.
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2024.11.29 14:40 Substantial_Lab4542 WB Reggieleki 337526181264 or 235286718496
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2024.11.29 14:40 jojo_42069 Production vs Thoery/Studies courses in Film
Im a grade 12 student looking to major in proffesional communication and minor in film, but listed on the website the minor in film only offers thoery/studies based courses, is there a way i can do the production like courses?
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2024.11.29 14:40 XJoe360 A list of words / phrases / cultural references I’ve learned from listening to TMBG. I’m sure there are more I’m missing.
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2024.11.29 14:40 wazenton This hospital walk has German writing on it “Wo Sind Eune Handy”
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2024.11.29 14:40 Gabagool2024 Ambrosía de los dioses
 | https://preview.redd.it/dvoluyw6ru3e1.jpg?width=1200&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=d9f2b67a412512ca7e45c76d13b4173f9d3f4c91 Nada mejor que tostadas con palta. submitted by Gabagool2024 to Burises [link] [comments] |
2024.11.29 14:40 italooscar Help for shipping in Italy
Hi everyone. I'm currently truing to buy a set up from simagic official website but when I have to select the country there is no Italy in the menu (there is San Marino that is basically a city in italy but not italy itself). It' just the site broken or they just don't ship to Italy? In case do you know sone goods reseler that doesn't cost too much more than the simagic site. Thank you
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2024.11.29 14:40 PaxonicYT RTX 4070 SUPER oder RTX 5070
Servus, vor zwei Wochen habe ich meinen Prozessor von einem Ryzen 5 3600 auf einen Ryzen 9 5950X aufgerüstet, und ich bin damit sehr zufrieden. Jetzt soll die Grafikkarte dran sein. Derzeit nutze ich eine RTX 2060. Ich überlege, ob es sich lohnt, eine RTX 4070 SUPER zu kaufen, oder ob es besser wäre, auf die RTX 5070 zu warten.
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2024.11.29 14:40 Jona-wahn imagine if this was anemo dmg
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2024.11.29 14:40 WildMustang_1 Can someone bring the quality higher and fix the sky so it would not be so bright? Will tip 10$/€, thanks
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2024.11.29 14:40 Roadkillgoblin_2 These guys live inside your eyes
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2024.11.29 14:40 Safe_Personality577 Hi,
I am going to Thailand for first time.
I am planning to stay 7!days in BKK , 4 days in Pattaya and 7 days in Phuket.
I want to do e v e r y t h i ng.
I am traveling solo.
All suggestions and advices are very welcome.
Thanks
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2024.11.29 14:40 No_Turn_3936 What does this mean?
So i have 2 of these glass shrimp. This one has all kinds of green behind his head. The other one doesnt have this. What does this mean??
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2024.11.29 14:40 Unhappy-Block-9641 Tsunade (@3amsoda)
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2024.11.29 14:40 Specialist_Log8449 What do you think about dumfries as RCB?
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2024.11.29 14:40 ThysicalPherapist Is my MacBook beyond repair?
 | MacBook Air fell and screen went black with cracks that seem to be internal (can’t feel the cracks on the screen) and rainbow vertical lines on the screen. submitted by ThysicalPherapist to macbook [link] [comments] |
2024.11.29 14:40 dzkininja Overnight parking safety camps bay
I just checked into an Airbnb and have been told to park on the street. Is camps bay safe to leave car overnight? I will have a car seat in there.
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