Confused about God and Christianity
2024.11.29 16:28 Svida100 Confused about God and Christianity
When I was a teenager the only movies that were on Satellite Television were Christian movies and when I watched the romantic Christian movies I dreamed of marrying a white women one day, however since I am from an Asian country all the women here are brown. Also, duriing that time, there were sermons preached from Kenneth Copland, Jack Van Imp and others who preached about faith and trust in the Lord, so for 15 years I believed by faith that God help me fiind a Christian women who was white.
As a strong Christian at the time I used to read the bible everyday, pray and was the one who used to preach in school evveryweek when we had the relgious sessions. I have even prayed ffor people and they have been healed.
Yet, after 15 years when I finally met someone who promised to marry me over again I felt a level of happiness I had never felt in life. However, in the end she rejected me as she was she felt I deserved better where she had lied about her age saying she was 32 but in reality was 39 and looked like 50. She was very strict and controlling a Since, I was in love with her I didn't care about these factors.
One thing I noticed about me was how loyal and committed I was, I knew that her appearance would get worst over time and her health issues would increase where I would have to be the one who would have to do everthing essentially becoming a caregiver which was actually her real goal but felt guilty after meeting my mom. I was willing toput up with everything simply because I loved her deeply.
Christianity: After what happened I am in a state of confusion when it comes to God, prayer and faith, I feel dissapointed and let down as I never asked God for money or anything but a white Christian women and of all the women out there across the world why did it have to be her? Nevermind her age, selfishness, short temper and a plethora of other issues, but why did it have to be someone who after knowing my lonliness and past still decided reassured over and over again only to let me down and hurt me badly? This is what I don't understand about God. I hear testimonies at Church, yet, I feel like they are all coincidents. I have no idea what to believe. I am so confused. People keep saying that there will be someone better yet, months later the only things that have improved are my circumstances, I am more qualified, have a better job and now in the process of getting an even better job in a new country. But deep inside I feel an emotional void where travelling, cars, food does not satify me. I actually feel lonely. Even if I try to pray I feel like I am talking to wall.
Now when it comes to Christianity, I feel nothing, praying feels like I am talking to a wall and in Church I feel so bored and de motivated to go. I don't know what to believe anymore. So confused.
The mission oriented mindset: I have always been a person who once sets a goal aims to archive it against all odds. Some goals I have had and archived were travelling to different countries, climbing a volcano to the summit with 16kg of my dream camera and equipment, flying on the world's largest aircraft. I know these are small goals compared towhat other people have but for me they gave me satisfaction and happiness beyond measure.
The one thing I find odd is that no women is willing to put faith in me but an employer is even if I have zero experience in that industry where I end up proving myself when given the chance.
Failed goals in life : Becoming a commercial Airline Pilot due to the facts of funds
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