To my Father
2025.01.18 05:20 beekeeper04 To my Father
I don't even know where to start except by simply saying you've become the most soul sucking positivity leeching negative person I've come to know. I lay here in bed listening to my little sister cry after you forced us all to go to bed without even a single warning or asking to quiten down. We were all having fun, working on our art, and you barged in yelling and started screaming at all of us about how you've dealt with "it" for weeks, what's "it"? You made my sister spill her craft beads all over the floor as she cried while you stared at her, then you yelled, and what? Scooped them all up into her bucket, which she'd spent an hour organizing just earlier today. You're heartless, you don't care about anyone but yourself. And when mom came in she came with condescendence, the motherly comforting tone letting us know It'll be fine and we can fix it, something I've long never heard from you. Why couldn't you have just told us we were a little too loud? Is one weekend night of fun together without you two bickering at each other the whole time too much to give? For the last 9 fucking years you've turned into the most negative human being in my entire life, you've drained every ounce of positivity i ever try to give, and when i try to reason with you, you put me down, you put others down, you care about no one but yourself and apparently you're family, you say you can count your friends on two fingers but who's fault is it except for you not trying to be better. You take every little last thing thats happened to you as a child and made it our problem, you project constantly, and now it's my duty as your first son now 18 to realize everything i feel is because of you and the way you chose to raise me. I try so hard to be good, to be kind and understanding and patient and every last bit of you goes against that, you've failed my siblings, you've failed my mother, her grief is your own, you gave it to her, she is tired of you, SICK of you, yet we pretend for you, because somehow without you we couldn't be where we are, how she hasn't left is beyond my understanding, I long to escape this house, and drag them all with me, away from you and all your pain you pour onto others. Why can't you try to be better, you've recognized your sorrow countless times spouting it out at me in the driver's seat of the car high as fuck off weed pens and nicotine you refuse to quit, crying and sobbing not letting me say a thing, as if I'd know what to say ever, you never taught me how to help others, let alone myself, I learned from my friends to be gentle and slow, not to beg and scream. Does mom know about the lady you loved? All the drugs you do? The distain you feel for us all because we don't know how to help you and how you see that as us hating you? Do you remember beating me when i was little and never understood? Do you feel sorry? Are you sorry? Can you feel my anxiety? Can you feel my relief with the first inhale of weed i take every night? Can you feel how unbound and relentless my emotions sway back and forth? I learned how to tame myself by watching you refuse to try. Are you jealous that my cat feels the warmth of my tender love more than you possibly ever will? I can't remember the last time you hugged me and meant it. I can't remember the last time you said you loved me. Do you? Your refusal to try to change is your very downfall, nothing more or less than simply accepting your past and trying to move forward in managing your thoughts and attempting to think positively. Why won't you try? It's as if you love loathing in your own pity. There's so much more i could say, i could go on for hours, days, weeks if i tried, of everything you've made us all feel. Moments ruined by your hate, plans events meetings, tossed away or gone wrong. My mother continues trying. We all continue trying. Because we love you regardless, but we can't help you, you have to help yourself, because you never tell us anything and refuse to, you refuse to get help, you continue to refuse to try. So hit your vape smoke a bowl and dirty some more dishes and then complain when I ask why we can't all just wash our own dish so no one has to take the burden. Blame us for your troubles. You are nothing but a leech to me.
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So i was sitting at my desk drawing random stuff (since im an artist) and i was humming APT. (by Rose and Bruno Mars) so i started the song, and when i got to “red hearts red hearts, thats what im on, come give me something i can feel” once i got to the something i can feel part me desk chair broke-
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