I might have much Münchausen syndrome and I’m going to take it to my grave.
2025.01.20 08:20 TakingToMyGrave I might have much Münchausen syndrome and I’m going to take it to my grave.
I don’t even really know what to say. I had issues when I was a teenage but refused to believe it. Even when I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, and anxiety/social anxiety, I refused to believe it. Almost threw the papers saying what I had been diagnosed with out the window on the car ride home. I was pissed and refused to take medication for it. For context: I grew up in a very red state. The environment was that if a girls issues were to be taken seriously, she must be screaming, crying, being overdramatic, or it must not be that bad. On the flip side, online, I saw girls were made fun of and shamed for doing that. I thought anything going against these ideals were just ugly lonely women (yes I watched feminist owned videos). Although I left those ideologies behind, my pain continued into adulthood, self harming, anxiety, crying, but keeping it to myself because I believe I was just being “overdramatic”. Finally after a spiral and being fired from my job (I was also in college at the time and failing). I sought help. Didn’t tell my parents because I was insanely embarrassed, but agreed with the psychiatrist to go on medication. About two months later I randomly decided to get out of that place and move to a big city. I got a job and was about to continue school at the city’s community college when I randomly just decided to cut my face. Researched the sharpest knifes, bought one and a knife sharpener, went home and cut my face. My roommate walked in, long story short I was forcibly admitted to the mental hospital. I left after 11 days and was diagnosed with BPD. Again, I didn’t believe it. Thought I had a right to do that and blow off stream. Got up on a new medication and gad to see a psychiatrists, they kept asking me why I did that and I (extremely mad and frustrated) said because I wanted too. Finally I just decided to lie to get them off my back. Said angels told me to do it. The reaction I got felt great. I got to talk about it with doctors, and the whole thing was being taken seriously. Continued the lie, saying I sometimes hear voices. They put me on an antipsychotic which made me gain weight. But I kept lying and lying and the antipsychotic kept getting raised and I continued to gain weight, but I didn’t care. After a while I stopped lying. I had graduated with my AA with a 3.5 GPA. Still had upsetting thoughts but cried a lot less. Got a job but I wasn’t happy. I worked with excel but at a distribution center. All my coworkers were men. My boss was great. But some of my coworkers were passive aggressive to me, assuming behavior based on my gender, rather than my professional skills or just straight up making jokes at my expense. I also started going on dates with a guy. He was nice but didn’t really like him. I was unhappy and wanted an out. I lied again, and in a way actually believed it, I was crying, when I went to the hospital they took my heart rate and it was going 130 BPM. I did things that I’ve heard of other mentally ill people doing. Got put in the mental hospital. Refused to take my medication while I was there and began crying a lot again because “no one understood me”. I truly believed it. I was crying to loudly at night and refused to ho back in my room so they had yo hold me down and sedate me. I was passed out for about two days. The doctors took me to court and ruled that I would have to forcibly be given my medication. Still kept up the act and in a way, truly believed it. I refused to eat or drink the water there, and after three days, got double vision, continued to not eat. I was pretending to eat, but throwing it away in the trash cans. Another day went by and I ended up blacking out and falling over. Doctors found out and said I would die if I kept doing this. Became terrified I would die in my sleep and was crying all night until a nurse assured me that I wouldn’t. Still didn’t eat the next day. At this point I couldn’t get out of bed. Still truly believing this was happening to me, these “delusions” began to fade. I ate. After a week it felt like I had returned to “normal” they let me go with a high dose of the new medication which made me gain 30 lbs in the month I was in there. I actually ended up giving myself severe nightmares from the hospital. I need to take a stuffed animal to doctors/therapy appointments now or I start freaking out. Sometimes I just think about it randomly and I make faces or noises because it upsets me so much. I’m going to EDMR therapy to help with that stuff. But people, my family, friend, doctor, finally listen to me and I don’t have to be overdramatic. I was recently watching untold stories of the er. There were three separate stories so far about people with Münchausen syndrome. The way they were described and shown in the show didn’t really align with me, so, I don’t know. Never going to tell anyone though. This feels like me. Hope I don’t decide to go to the mental hospital again.
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2025.01.20 08:20 ProgenitorOfMidnight First time trying Hot Ones classic
Friend brought a bottle into work knowing I like hot sauces, this isn't exactly the spiciest, it's missing that kick I really enjoy.
But I'll be damned if that isn't a tasty ass sauce. I'm tempted to grab a bottle and slather up a bunch of wings with it this weekend.
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2025.01.20 08:20 Longjumping_Pirate87 Cowboys conspiracy theories!!!
As the title states. To help cope with the god awful state of team I’ve been coming up with out of this world completely false theories to help me feel better so o thought I’d share.
- When Jerry bought the team, he made a deal with the league (because at this point it’s clearly rigged, look at the chiefs) that if they made him a dynasty and gave him 3 out of 4 championships we’d be relegated to no conference championships for 30 years. Jerry being a businessman knew he could sell a team with that many rings, even if they didn’t win again for 30 years. So of course he said yes, created the most valuable franchise ever and rakes in the cash.
And my second theory!! And this one’s more nonbelievable because it requires us to be an “intelligent” franchise.
- With the knowledge of knowing we wouldn’t make any championships, what if Jerry signed Dak (mediocre to above average) to that huuuuge contract because he KNEW Hurts and Daniels would both be better and inevitably require bigger contracts than Dak per the market, thus crippling those teams salary wise once we finally exit our 30 year exodus and can offload Dak 😂
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Pa-recommend na rin ng mga lively hosts please. Host Angel Castro is not available sa wedding date namin.
TIA.
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2025.01.20 08:19 Remarkable-Panic-757 4 mo won’t take bottle before bed
Hi all! This has been an issue for a few weeks now and I have no idea what to do.
Lo 4mo refuses to take a bottle before bed (prior to bath, jammies etc). It doesn’t matter if he hasn’t eaten in 4 hours he just rejects it and screams. It also doesn’t matter where/who or when we attempt to give it it’s just a flat out no. So we put him down for sleep on what I assume is a fairly empty tummy and he falls asleep but will wake up an hour later take a full bottle and then sleep for another 9-10hrs.
I wouldn’t be so worried about it if he was meeting his intake quota but he isn’t by about 100-150ml (exclusively pumped breast milk).
Any advice would be much appreciated!
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Any ideas or websites where I could convert images?
I don't cross stitch myself but it seems like boomer pixel art so maybe just a pixilated map would work?
Any ideas? Tyia
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