Jan 22 - I’m still lonely but it feels easier today.
2025.01.23 04:19 spiralzigzag Jan 22 - I’m still lonely but it feels easier today.
Rejection is really painful for me and I felt it repeatedly yesterday. I’ve never been one to lean into others but we all want someone to understand us sometimes. Yesterday it hurt a lot and today it hurts less.
I chose silence today. I’m not cruel, but I don’t want to be a care taker. And I don’t want to be taken for granted. And I also don’t want to cry and be helpless. I already did that last night in a parking lot alone. It’s too exhausting to cry or be sad. To cry, explain, ask for explanation, or really anything. I’m tired. I give up. I’ll be quiet for you. I’m done talking.
I said I’d stop weed but it’s hard when I feel sad, alone and aimless. Winters also depressing because the sun doesn’t come out in the winter anymore.
I threw out most of my empty weed carts and hoarded the few I could get use out of. Yes, pathetic indeed. I also took my last edible. It still isn’t doing shit, but I keep taking it every night this week anyway.
I’m all out of my stuff now. If I go to the dispensary tomorrow, this entire break is over. I won’t stop. I’ll just keep going. So I guess tomorrows the day. All my shit is done, and I can’t just buy more now and go off the deep end.
I built some mental resilience today. Stopping myself from spiralling, taking control, rationalizing, maintaining discipline, and doing what I said I’d do. I’m going to try and use the same resilience tomorrow and get back to normal, really normal, without any substance
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2025.01.23 04:19 hypersatanic Сингулярность всё ближе... AGI = общий интеллект... Superintelligence = интеллект выше человеческого... 🎦 Masayoshi Son: AGI is coming very very soon and then after that, Superintelligence...
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2025.01.23 04:19 Particular_Lake_4793 Question about quantities
Hi guys, I’ve been contemplating making an account for a while and decided to bite the bullet. I can’t quite find an answer about this on the FAQ or Reddit threads:
In what quantities does the app buy the stocks — I obviously don’t have as much $ as Nancy in my account lol so it can’t “match” her exact purchases (ex. She buys 100,000 worth but I only have 10,000 to play around with). Does it just use all that’s available in your brokerage acct to get as close to hers as possible?
I get if there’s not enough $ in your acct, the buy just won’t go through but I guess I’m curious how much is being matched relative to the Pilot persons actual position
Thanks!
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2025.01.23 04:19 Mysterious-Low6785 TRE WHILE MEDITATING
This concept (TRE) is entirely new to me—I didn’t even know it existed until recently. Lately, as I’ve started meditating, I’ve noticed something unexpected happening. When I’m fully relaxed and focused on my breath, I suddenly begin to experience tremors in my head, and it feels as though my body is on the verge of floating. I try to push through it and stay focused on my breath, continuing the meditation, but I find it difficult. The moment I reach this sensation, I feel confused and usually end up stopping. However, afterward, I notice something strange—I feel lighter and more energetic, even if I was sleepy before starting the meditation or about to go to bed. Does anyone have an explanation for this?
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2025.01.23 04:19 Ok-Calendar-2853 Threshold of a Wayward
For those waywards I have a question. I’ve been on my waywards case and been pestering him about my gut feelings as of recently…
He says he’s been feeling bad everyday..and I feel bad as well just badgering him will all my fears and such. Granted he was the cause but I’m sure there’s only so much one can take.
I’m trying my best to quit it. But my body has been feeling so of..tightness of chest, stomach pains, and the last time I was like this I found out about his affair. So far there’s nothing to report but I can’t shake the feeling.
When is enough enough?
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2025.01.23 04:19 digitaldreamgrl switching to Vyepti
I’ve been on emgality for a while now and it’s been an effective preventative for me (along with botox and a few other preventative daily meds) but unfortunately my insurance has been getting increasingly difficult about it and I’ve been unable to receive consistent treatment and both my doctor and I are fed up. my doctor has found it easier for her other patients to get coverage for vyepti recently and I was recently approved!
wondering about your experiences with vyepti; especially interested in hearing from those who have switched to it from other CGRP inhibitors/blockers like emgality but grateful to hear anyone’s experience. thanks!!
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2025.01.23 04:19 RealPoliticalCow AI reads full text of Biden’s pardon for entire family #satire #politics #biden
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2025.01.23 04:19 GameProfessional 🌐 24/7 Video Game | Nintendo DSi LL XL UTL-001 JPN Console Lot of 5 Untested For Parts Repair 2140UG
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2025.01.23 04:19 Zealousideal-Track-8 recommendations please
does anyone have any bl recommendations where it goes from unrequited to requited love. i don’t mind it being a little toxic. you can think heart stain. i wanna ready something angsty lol. thank you!
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2025.01.23 04:19 Charming-Recording65 [Sterkhander - Fight Against The Hordes!] Chapter 1.1 | In The Beginning There Was War Or Something Like That! [WarHammer Inspired/ Litrpg/ Kingdom Building/ Medieval Tactics/ War]
The rafters loomed above in the darkness. Beams of thick and ancient wood criss crossed back and forth. They were hidden behind a veil of absolute black that pressed down on him like a thick blanket. It should have at least, and yet he was seeing perfectly fine. Then there was the head covering he had on, metal by the sound of its shifting. It afforded him nothing but slits to see the outside world. Like a helmet.
Adrian blinked. He hadn’t been wearing a helmet, of any kind, when he had gone to sleep. A stark feeling and sensation of foreign alien’ness’ hinted that his face was no longer his own. He hadn’t attempted to move in the past few moments, terrified that he may have been kidnapped or worse, woken up on a surgical table of some sort to be tortured. Facial structure too large, forehead too big, cheeks too square, jaw too sharp.
He shifted. The sound of heavy metal followed, groaning hinges, and his own grunt of effort. Hay fell off of him. At least that confirmed the barn theory.
Armor? Adrian looked down at the thick breastplate on his chest.
Rats scurried in the room and his ears perked up. Catching the minute bits of sound. He looked around the barn, the musty scent of hay slamming into his nostrils a moment later. Large square bales surrounded him like a fort, or maybe a casket. Loose bales with their straps cut had sprawled over him and covered him. The more he looked, the more it seemed intentional. As If someone had tried to hide his massive body here.
"Well," he whispered. "This definitely isn't my bedroom.”
It was currently the middle of a long summer semester at his local university. The buildings were mostly empty, restaurants without long lines, courts empty for him to get some cardio in, and the weight rooms were empty just how he liked it. He lived with three other roommates who were all at their parents' homes around the country. Leaving him by himself.
His head throbbed with a peculiar double-vision of memories. Late nights hunched over engineering textbooks warring with centuries of martial tradition. Adrian grabbed his head with both hands, they too were covered in thick metal without any issue bending and forming like normal hands. He closed his eyes in hopes it would help relieve the sudden pain. Both sets of memories felt real, yet fundamentally incompatible.
There were overlapping parts but even then it was too stark a difference. He had googled and watched many youtube videos on ancient war tactics, and the new set of memories had searched scrolls and parchments on the engineering of trebuchets and ballistas.
Something skittered in the darkness above him. His ears caught it as quickly as the rat before it. His eyes searched for what was up there only to find a bat hanging upside down and staring at him. He could have sworn it was laughing at him. Mocking him for another failure–
Failure…? B’s and C’s get you degrees–
Again he grunted in pain as more memories of a certain Adrian Sterkhander. His failures. The disappointment of noble lineages and more.
“Agh!” he shouted. Banishing the depressed thoughts. They suffocated him, and he was too bright and lively to allow it to consume him. The massive plate armor encasing his transformed body creaked softly as he shifted, the sound absurdly loud in the midnight quiet. He had wondered what it felt like being depressed or filled with sorrow. And the taste he got was something he never wanted to experience again.
It was hopeless. Lifeless. It terrified him.
Instead of delving deeper into the original’s memories he let his hands search under the hay. His fingers curled around a familiar weapon. A source of comfort and peace for Adrian Sterkhander, but also the source of his greatest failures. His fingers tightened around the pommel as he lifted it from its own casket. A longsword that mocked any form of classification rose up weightless.
Adrian knew it was half his height in length. As wide as two palms of his generous hands. Compared to a regular human, he was a giant. Eight-feet tall and as wide as a door. Equally absurd amounts of strength filled his limbs, even among the knights that were like him.
His other hand found a thick shield, fingers barely wide enough to grip its edge. He pulled it out the hay and marveled at how light it was in his hands, struggling to imagine how much it should have weighed. It too was the color of his faded armor. Dark faded green that bore testament to countless battles. Covered in dents, scratches, and a surprising diagonal tear a few inches wide near the top right.
Something had been both sharp enough and heavy enough to cut through it.
"This can’t be right," Adrian muttered. His voice resonated strangely in the confines of his helm. Again his memories clashed causing him pain. Last night's memories clashed violently with present reality. The last thing he remembered was getting into a soft bed in his apartment and bundling in a thick blanket like a cocoon. And now it was replaced by cold metal and hay. The gentle hum of his laptop fan transformed into–
“Fuck!” he shouted again. Fingers found the helm's release catches in practiced movements he could have sworn to have never done. And yet it was muscle memory.
The helm's removal released a cascade of stark black hair. Long and luscious. He had no beard. Cold air rushed down into his lungs as he took a deep breath, it cooled his overheating mind. But that didn’t help his racing heart, it beat louder every second.
A lancing pain blossomed on his right side. He looked down at his armor and found a deep dent that marred the beat up armor even more. He couldn’t imagine the sheer power and momentum required to deform metal this thick. But it explained why he felt like he had a broken rib.
Adrian imagined a strike, strong enough to cut a man in half, barely doing anything at all to his incredulous armor.
[CONGRATULATIONS! SYSTEM UNLOCKED]
[STATUS:]
[MARK LEVEL: Mid-Copper 3 - Level 13]
[PROGRESS: 434/2000]
[STRENGTH: 17]
[AGILITY: 15]
[VITALITY: 16]
[CONSTITUTION: 19]
[ENDURANCE: 14]
[INTELLIGENCE: 6 (10)]
[MARK: 12]
[MARK ENERGY: 354/1300]
[AVAILABLE STAT POINTS: ]
[SKILLS TAB: SELECT TO EXPAND]
[COMBAT SKILLS]
[Swordsmanship [Intermediate]: 423/1000
Mounted Combat [Intermediate]: 287/500
Formation Fighting [Intermediate]: 467/1000
Tactical Command [Basic]: 156/300
Spearmanship [Basic]: 133/500]
[MARK SKILLS]
[Shadow Step [Basic]: 378/500
Shadow Strike [Intermediate]: 143/1200
Shadow Sense [Basic]: 467/500
Shadows [Intermediate]: 392/1200
Strengthen [Basic]: 33/500
Strengthened Strike [Basic]: 174/500
Fortified Body [Basic]: 89/500]
[ADDITIONAL STAT TYPES UNAVAILABLE CURRENTLY]
Adrian jumped in his seat. The words were a stark difference and shone far too bright in the darkness. It took a few moments just for his eyes not to struggle at seeing the words in front of him. But once he could read it, he was left reading it without much knowledge of what any of it signified. Of course he could make educated guesses, but this wasn’t some game. This was real life. Everything is connected to everything else in obtuse ways. Nothing was as it seemed until you fully understood it, and even then there was still more to learn.
His eyes flitted by it all. A strange sense of disappointment filled his veins. Again, instinctually he knew the average human had seven’s across the board. The greatest in their fields could only realistically reach ten. And here he was sitting with seventeens, nineteens, fifteens, and sixteens bolstered by skills and powers that sounded fantastical. Shadow step? Fortified Body? Shadow Strike?
The application of something like this already passing his mind in unique ways, separately, or even paired together. He played far too many games to not instantly attempt to either min/max or take advantage of what he had to its fullest potential. This was a good start if anything.
And still the disgusted feeling permeated his senses. He could taste it.
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2025.01.23 04:19 GameProfessional 🏆 Game Professional |Nintendo DSi LL XL UTL-001 JPN Console Lot of 5 Untested For Parts Repair 2140UG
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2025.01.23 04:19 TorogiCanadian Max-out RRSP or start non-reg account
27(M). I maxed out my TFSA and already have a primary home. Should I max out my RRSP or just invest in a non-reg account. I use simplewealth.
My opinion is that I might die before enjoying my RRSP contributions. And maxing it out may make it worse.
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2025.01.23 04:19 wetiphenax Who Is This Artist? Also, any idea how much it’s Worth?
This has been in the family forever and ever. Any idea who it is and how much it could be worth?
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2025.01.23 04:19 Duffleman0609 [FLA (1) - 0 LAK] Lundell finds Evan Rodrigues backdoor for the power play goal
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2025.01.23 04:19 Dependent_Jaguar_234 Heathcliff gets an education??????
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2025.01.23 04:19 dogmuncha Best 305 tutors other than matthew ?
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2025.01.23 04:19 arkooehs Little Lamb a Little Scam?
Recently a group of sales people approached us with this Magazine subscription for kids. It seemed to have neat little stories and puzzles with good quality paper (think it's called photo paper or something).
We thought why not go for it. Thing is that they sell it on subscription basis with a minimum subscription of Rs. 500 and I guess for around 10 monthly issues or something that seemed decent.
Paid the 500 and haven't gotten any further copies. Now, I actually checked the contents of the magazine and noticed quite a few typos, spelling mistakes, editing mistakes etc.
The biggest giveaway of it being a scam is that there's no address of the publisher or any contact details whatsoever.
I guess I should have looked into it better before jumping in but did just want to bring awareness to this kind of scam to others at least. If anyone has had experiences similar to this please do let others know as well
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2025.01.23 04:19 GameProfessional ⬆️ Up Game Shop | Nintendo DSi LL XL UTL-001 JPN Console Lot of 5 Untested For Parts Repair 2140UG
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2025.01.23 04:19 buildingdreams4 I keep having out of body dreams where I see everything in my room(wife, kids, etc) but I am being pulled upwards and away from them...how do I stop these reoccurring dreams?
I will pretext this with I am not one who normally dreams(if I do, I do not remember dreaming).
I keep having these extremely vivid dreams about weekly. Sometimes they don't come for a couple weeks and then they are back for two or three nights in a row.
In this dream, I wake up laying in my bed but am immediately pulled out of my bed.
Sometimes I am pulled off the side of the bed(which I prefer because I am able to grab onto the bed or bed frame and keep from being pulled towards my bedroom door and then out).
Sometimes I am pulled straight upwards towards the ceiling with my back to my bed and me looking down to the side.
I always make sure to look to my bed to see if I am dreaming or if this is somehow real....I know my wife is laying next to me always.
Last night, my toddler daughter fell asleep next to me and my wife wasn't in the room (she fell asleep in our other daughter's bed who is sick ..so it was just my toddler daughter in the bed).
Just as is the case when my wife is there with her, I saw my daughter sleeping just as I saw her before I fell asleep.
In these dreams, everything is completely vivid as if I'm awake. The feeling of being pulled towards my bedroom door is so strong I can't fight it unless I'm being pulled off the side of the bed and have something to hold onto.
If I am pulled all the way to my bedroom door, I will usually be able to hold onto the door frame and attempt to scream my wife's name to get her to wake me up.
Last night, when being pulled to the ceiling and only seeing my baby daughter laying there, I screamed out "Jesus" in my whisper voice(I can't actually scream in these dreams...just quietly yell as hard as I can). When I screamed Jesus, I was then flipped upside down on my headboard and again I yelled out to Jesus...and my body settled back down and I woke up.
Only one time I wasn't able to fight being pulled out of my room by yelling for my wife or yelling for Jesus and that time I was pulled all the way to the front door of my home (which took me through a hallway, through my living room, and to the front door....all the while being up in the air against my ceiling).
When reaching the front door, it opened and I flew outside...and was pulled up into the air above my house...once outside, I gave up being scared and gave into the dream and just let it take me...not trying to scream or fight it anymore. (again...when outside, everything was exactly as vivid as if I were outside at night...I could see the details of my vehicles parked in my driveway, a dump trailer parked on the side of my house that I own for my building company...toys that I forgot to bring in earlier in the day from my kids playing outside...everything...just as if I were really outside).
I flew up in the air probably around 500 feet or so (similar to the distance a small Cessna would fly on approach to a runway), and flew overtop of a main highway near me that I travel daily...and was pulled all the way across the city and overtop of my parents home across town (again...I recognized every single detail as I was being pulled...every street was the same, every turn of the highway was the same...the gas station on the corner where they live...everything as if I was really freaking flying over their neighborhood).
I was pulled farther away from them and approached a dark castle type building in the distance. Given I was now heading somewhere I didn't recognize...I started to feel that terror I feel every other time I've tried to fight this dream when it starts and I started trying to scream again.
As I fought (and yelled out for God) I was going back to my home...into the house...above my bed...and back down onto my bed....and then I woke up and legit cried and tried to tell my wife what happened (this being like 3 in the morning...she wasn't interested and thought I was insane for crying about a dream in the middle of the night).
I've tried to tell her about how this keeps happening to me given I know she is a dreamer and is able to control her dreams (she's always said she knows she is dreaming when she's in a dream and can let herself fly and do other fun things in her dreams....something I've always thought was so cool and wished I dreamed so I could try to do that).
Now I'm here. I have these same exact reoccurring dreams where I am completely coherent and present knowing I'm in the middle of this dream....but have no control over what is happening and it's driving me insane/freaking me out.
I'm thankful I've figured out that calling out to Jesus in these dreams helps me get out of it....but I am legit nervous to go to sleep most nights thinking I might end up having the dream again.
Is there a method to stop a dream from coming back? How do I stop this from continuing to happen to me.
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2025.01.23 04:19 GameProfessional 🛍️ eBay Video Games | Nintendo DSi LL XL UTL-001 JPN Console Lot of 5 Untested For Parts Repair 2140UG
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2025.01.23 04:19 isuckatfishin euro nymph questions?
I have sort of tried euro nymphing once, with a euro leader on my 9ft 4wt rod. But i do want to get a dedicated euro nymph set up soon, to target trout, and potentially salmon. During the last pink run i was on the river and i noticed this dude catch 30 fish in about 30 min. I went to ask him about his set up. He was running a euro line on a 6wt Thomas and Thomas rod, using a jig streamer he tied. He said although the fly is pretty hard to cast, the euro line helps the fly sink much faster (fast moving river). He also wasnt casting very far. im curious to know if i get a a 3wt euro rod with a euro line, is that line strong enough to use for salmon (pinks and coho). I cant really find anything about the strength of the line.
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2025.01.23 04:19 Growing_Wings How did you figure out someone in your real life found your Reddit username?
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2025.01.23 04:19 GameProfessional ⬆️ Up Game Shop | Nintendo DSi LL XL UTL-001 JPN Console Lot of 5 Untested For Parts Repair 2140UG | Seller: usednet_japan_iv (98.6% positive feedback)Location: JPCondition: For parts or not workingShipping cost: 20.00 USDBuy It Now
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2025.01.23 04:19 DeliciousAd2773 Can’t post
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2025.01.23 04:19 nelzonkuat Trying its best (SFF 990)
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