I want it to be over
2025.01.31 04:33 Desperate-Put1147 I want it to be over
Im tired. 33 years old and I've dealt with enough that would send anyone running. So much of my life has been delt with pain and suffering. I know there are people who have it harder, ans i am super grateful for all I have. But I just wanna be happy.
I wanna love waking up in the morning. I wanna love myself. But I can't, I can't stand looking at myself, at my body. I try to be happy bit I just....can't. Parents are dead, sister and I have like no relationship, she treats me like dirt but yet I put up with it. So many things that happened to me and contuines to happen to me and I'm sinking. I've tried therapy, I've been taking medications since I was 14 and I just can't anymore. I eat, gain weight, complain and then do nothing about it. I hate myself, I hate my life.
But i gotta stay alive, for my kids. I'm not a happy mom, but I try my best. I don't want them to feel my pain. But what else can I do? Please, I just want it all to stop. I'm tired of being the bad guy, I'm tired of helping people just to have it blow up in my face. I'm tired.
I know im a lot to handle, but I dont deserve to be treated like this. I just wanna be happy and this pain to be over. Please I just want it over.
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2025.01.31 04:33 No-Education1196 UNLV transfer OL Mason Vicari has committed to Purdue
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2025.01.31 04:33 Jumpy_Birthday_2846 Cheap Mutated Lions for Sale! Need Gone!
Selling some primals and primal fang lions for cheap! I've got a mistletoe in there too! I'll even lower prices if contacted. Check out my cave, all prices listed in description (prices negotiable). https://www.lioden.com/cave.php?id=178374
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2025.01.31 04:33 Sufficient-Cut8534 I just started getting interested in building a PC (Canadian)
So I have been going back and forth with a friend about building a PC. I've been narrowing, went around online and looking at prices and checking for sales but I am worried about the t-riffs coming in and that I won't be able to afford anything in terms of building a PC now cuz I definitely won't be able to buy anything before the t-riffs cut off on Saturday. Anybody else worried about this because I just screamed into a pillow and I'm not really rich but a 25% markup on everything is really disheartening. Anyone else feel like this?
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2025.01.31 04:33 allisonwondrland3 Could valerian root cause a positive on a drug test?
I want to buy a natural relaxant for back pain, and it has valerian root in it. I read that valerian root can potentially cause a false positive on a drug test. I am subject to random drug tests at work, so I wouldn't want to risk it. Does anyone know anything about valerian root, should I steer clear cause it would actually cause a positive drug test?
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2025.01.31 04:33 Nightmare_Cipher_13 Looking for festivals that don't require driving!
Hello! I wanted to ask if anyone knows of any festivals or events in/around the Pittsburgh PA area? I have to rely on walking or public transit like the trolley or buses to get around, due to disabilities I cannot legally drive as of now. I wanted to see if anyone knew of any festivals that id be able to get to without having to get an Uber or Lyft or something. Thank you guys so much!!
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2025.01.31 04:33 ziraicatto おおきなおめめがすきなのだ
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2025.01.31 04:33 DistinctOrdinary3987 Aamna Shariff ♥️
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2025.01.31 04:33 CDNnotify Travis Scott x Nike Zoom Field Jaxx 'Light Chocolate' Online Release Guide [JAN 31]
![Travis Scott x Nike Zoom Field Jaxx 'Light Chocolate' Online Release Guide [JAN 31]](https://b.thumbs.redditmedia.com/u5nGyr51dfEWUP-4EA4VnM157SsibA8LqWiOBODHDTE.jpg "Travis Scott x Nike Zoom Field Jaxx 'Light Chocolate' Online Release Guide [JAN 31]") | submitted by CDNnotify to SneakersCanada [link] [comments] |
2025.01.31 04:33 sprouttherainbow Cheddar is missing a front leg so he's a one-armed dangler
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2025.01.31 04:33 Green_Judge_2239 Am I the only one that thinks this is long-term and real?
I think this is in process a real attempt at a corporate takeover of Canada. They look at Canada and are licking their chops. With an administration as brutal in business and as rich in financial resource I feel they are just going to go ahead full-steam on the tariffs and outlast Canada. If taking too long, they'll crank up the tariffs. Then when Canada is pretty well broke...
When someone picks a fight with you and has to 'make up the reasons', you know there is something bigger. I think in this case it is just a corporate takeover of Canada. Economic pressure to annex Canada.
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2025.01.31 04:33 gayforvera Bug or not after kicked out from shrouded woodlands?
This is kinda embarassing to ask because i'm not sure if it's bug or not but first time exploring shrouded woodlands and got kicked out because of the dam break, then when i go upstairs i can't jump into the main hall despite there are no waters?? I mean i can jump but it's always like bouncing backward and can't get through the door
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2025.01.31 04:33 WTFPilot Sheriff Grady Judd on Trump’s Presidency, January 6 Pardons
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2025.01.31 04:33 Jevil_But_Epic20XX Give your best reaction to this thing I found in hell
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2025.01.31 04:33 Quantumedphys Unmotivated, depressed, and stuck. Looking for a book that can help.
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2025.01.31 04:33 nameandcolor iil one note songs that build in intensity wewil?
Best examples are: All My Friends by LCD Soundsystem Transmission by Joy Division Bodys by Car Seat Headrest
I’m making a playlist of songs that all have this similar vibe
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2025.01.31 04:33 AggravatingSyrup8146 How do I know if I popped my punch biopsy stitches
Hi all! I F23 had a punch biopsy on my lower neck/ upper chest today to remove a roughly 6mm diameter lump. The doctor then did internal and external facing stitches and put gause on the area and covered it with tape. I was slouching/half lying down on my bed and heard a loud noise and sat up quickly. I felt a little loosening feeling on my chest and I'm really worried I somehow popped a stitch. The tape is too stuck for me to pull it off and check if it looks better or worse or is bleeding/swelling. It doesn't look like any blood was bled through the gause so it would be visible don't outside. I really don't want a gaping hole in my chest. What do I do? Should I contact the doctor and go back in or am I overthinking because it was a really small quick feeling? Theres no more pain or irritation than there was before.
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2025.01.31 04:33 sleep2345man Cool Setup
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2025.01.31 04:33 Vinnie_AM Upgraded from the proxy
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2025.01.31 04:33 papitogostosito Não sei ser feminina e isso está me matando
Não sei ser feminina, não uso maquiagem, não sei pentear o cabelo é muito menos me arrumar ou usar saias ( uso uma só na verdade)
Fui criada na assembleia e por muito tempo na minha vida se arrumar era pecado, estou falando de usar uma blusa normal ou passar um hidratante na boca. ( até depilar )
Dos meus 12 aos 15 anos foi um período muito complicado, lembro de ser mandada voltar pra casa por minha mãe pq ela viu que eu usei uma blusa """ pecaminosa"""... o engraçado é que ela mesma tinha me dado.
Toda vez que ela estava em casa me sentia muito sufocada, ela olhava tudo o que eu fazia e criticava.
Hoje em dia não me sinto feminina, não consigo me olhar no espelho e achar algo em mim bonito. Acabei engordando bastante o que me deixou ainda mais chateada comigo mesma.
Queria ser que nem essas garotas que tem roupas bonitas, sabem se arrumar e passar uma maquiagem mesmo que leve.
Pode ser fútil ou bobo mas sinto que isso está me afetando.
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2025.01.31 04:33 mandarin_orangez Position change to keep player
Has anyone done a mid season position change to try and drop rating and keep a player?
I have a 96 receiving back. 5* true SOPH. I have a theory that if I edit him to receiver his rating will drop and he will stay longer. Has anyone tried this? I dont necessarily need him at RB and if he keeps his stats I would play him in the slot/returner. Online dynasty so can’t save cheese it.
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2025.01.31 04:33 missyjay11 Is anyone else annoyed AF this season?
All these players are complete idiots. They vote based on emotion instead of logic. It seems like everyone takes assumptions & feelings and turn it into fact. Either bring normal people in again like season 1 OR if you want all reality stars have them be from a reality GAME show like Survivor, BB, The Challenge, etc..
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2025.01.31 04:33 mangosaresweet Show me your orange sable as a puppy and now.
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2025.01.31 04:33 PanromanticPanda I don't know what's wrong with me (mention of suicide)
I'm just never good enough. I never say or do the right things. Today was my brother's birthday and i honestly forgot until my mom texted me. And tonight I came home after work and I just felt like I was losing my mind. Like psychotically laughing at everything. My brother and I got into an argument and I feel so shitty for making his birthday suck.
I feel like I get told all the time to stop talking. And I wish I would. I don't know why I can't stop. I don't have much of an internal monologue, so don't often think things through before I say them. I don't know how to get better at it.
I just feel like I'm trying so hard. I just got a second job and I'm trying to get myself the help I need. But it constantly feels like everything's going wrong. I got a therapist, and she made me feel even worse. So I got a new one, and she left the company. Now I have a new one and can't manage to get myself to schedule another appointment.
I just really need help and I feel like I'm running out of options and energy. I want to harm myself in a way that will finally make me learn not to act the way I do. I don't really know what to do right now, I think I should go to sleep. But I don't really understand why I would be exhausted to the point of losing my sanity. I slept fine last night and nothing about today tired me out that bad.
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2025.01.31 04:33 No-Area1725 31 F, F4M, 5’3”
I’m born and brought up in Hyderabad and moved to the states like most H1bs. I’ve tried arranged marriage setups for a few years within my caste but didn’t have any luck. I’m a happy go lucky person and am looking for someone who is fun loving, open minded and willing to grow in a relationship. I also want him to have a decent career / backup idea (incase we have to move back to India, I’m open to that option as my family is in Hyderabad). I love cooking and I function as a fully grown adult for the most part ;) I love watching movies and binging on web series. I also like being outdoorsy, city walks, hikes and the works.
More details about me: I workout often. I have a decent job (full time, TC is over $230k). Willing to relocate if that’s a dealbreaker. Looking for someone who is ideally not more than 5 yrs older to me.
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