Its Fun........
2024.11.25 10:50 New-Dimension-726 Its Fun........
Well, I am 17, and loaded my brain with literature/Philosophy/Psychology in a very early age, thanks to anime.
When I was younger, I had no idea that I would consume such a substantial amount of literature. It seems almost preposterous to me sometimes, like a fever dream...
It all started with a small boys wish to watch a animated cartoon, at the time of lockdown, I may say and not humbly, that I believe that I have a rare gift of intelligence and a lust for knowledge. From the outset, I have been intrigued by the study of human psyche due to my father's profession as a psychologist and the fact that my father has taken out the bodies of disabled children from the dumpster, and I have visited my fathers job many times now, unfortunately I have seen them, the children stares at me, while I walk pass by them, and I have stared at them too, such as Nietzsche said “if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes back at you”, I had begun to see darkness of the world, but I couldn't accept, that people would be this cruel, this heartless, and yet smile like nothing happened....
well, this is not a so called “Humans are inherently evil” type of post, so don't worry, this about how I started to become more “Human in more human sense”, or simply learned to appreciate life, literature, cinema, and art. If you had asked my opinion of these things while I was a kid, I would have definitely answered with shrilling voice and criticized them as meaningless and useless, only LOSER would enjoy such things, I would have said, and Yet here I stand as one of the biggest loser in the world, lol.
Anime, really changed me, as a person, so did those nights reading 1984, Animal farm, One hundred years of solitude, Lord of flies, crime and punishment, Brother Karamazov and In manga particular, Homunculus, Goodnight Punpun, Vagabond, Blame!, Usogui, Kingdom and many more...
Anime often times cited many books or authors, and they intrigued me, as a child with unrestricted internet, yet I couldn't grasp their importance or the essential meanings of the words, I couldn't understand what I was missing, to fully fathom these concepts, as I was a prideful and arrogant child, I couldn't tolerate that I was unable to understand something as simple and useless as literature, written by unemployed people, who had nothing to do better than waste their life writing such weak-minded bullshit, men who just wanted to give excuse their hardships.
And nearly at that time something happened, My family was plagued by corona, and unfortunately my father was the part of the statistic. I was devastated maybe broken, because at the time of funeral, I couldn't even shed a tear for my father, I was nearly ashamed of myself, but after some time the shell broke and I began to cry, but the darkness I spoke earlier, that I know existed, but refused to acknowledge, began to seep in.
My own family, after the death of father, my beloved uncles and aunties that I thought would help me to overcome my despair, My own grandfather, who I thought, loved me dearly, where the one who picked gauntlet, to completely destroy me, and so called my naive world view, After the funeral, They advised my mother, me and sis, to sleep on the cold ladden vehicle's lorry, because of limited place in the house. my mother, that day was shivering, and my sis was cold too, and yet I was so helpless, even then I believed my uncle and aunts, my grandfather and mother loved me, or cared for me................................................... lol.
if you want to hear more about my circumstances more, you can see my cringe post from little a while back ago https://www.reddit.com/Assistance/comments/1dbr13v/what_should_i_do/
Well, anyway, to sum it up, Life happened.
Because of such incident, my life view has changed drastically throughout literal months, I began ponder what's even love? Does it even exist? I began to despise the concept of love, I found it as a cheap version of LUST , I found it meaningless, even worthless at that time. Life began to lose its color, now it was only a pallet of black and white.
But at that time I stumbled on some visual novel or a show called "CLANNAD".............
I had Weekend free, but didn't want to study, I didn't wanted to talk to the people, I was scared, scared of every little things. so to pass another meaningless day, I decided to watch Clannad, to escape, to run, to shut the noise in my mind, to be free of judgment, to believe there is nothing I can do, To be Helpless, To be Hopeless
I had heard clannad being a sad show, so, I thought it would feed my nihilism some more, some more time being the victim of the world, but clannad was a romance story, a contrast to my ideals of the bleak world, I knew it cannot penetrate my impenetrable heart, with its love is wonderfull bullshit, and other tropes such as *sairat* or a break up or unfullfilled love, I had seen them many times now.... Its Fuckin Impenetrable baby!!!
And you know what? Clannad was everything I expected, to the very minute details, but the problems was that clannad had a very tragic end, but I wasn't sad, I wasn't hopeless, I was happy, I was hopeful, love began to bloom in my impenetrable heart once more, this time not with ignorance and naivety but with care and knowledge. It was absurd to feel such things from such a unfortunate end, but why? why was it so beautiful, so fulfilling. I had no such answers, I turned to google, to Quora, to reddit for my share of answers, I found something called as Philosophical absurdism, A meaningful meaningless void, my whole existence I believed my life was meaningless and worthless, but maybe thats whats it is, to be devoid of significance, to be meaningless, to be alive.
The moments which I have lived until now, maybe be have been of insignificance and fleeting, but were my evidence of myself being real and free, and when I die, so does my insignificance.
"Meaning is a jumper that you have to knit yourself" ~James Alan
I had begun to read many books, a lot of literature from Fyodor Dostoevsky, Friedrich Nietzsche, Albert Camus, Jean Paul Sarte, Krishna(Bhagvad gita),Garbriel Garcia Marques, etc many more
I read psychology from Carl Jung, Sigmund Freud, Robert Greene, Daniel Kaheman, etc many more
I read self~help, which I found oddly waste of time, but quite of few, rare taught me something new. But otherwise I would recommend reading fiction, because it does better than self help, and gives you a example too.
I watched and read a lot of anime and manga respectively, which are absolutely lovely, and masterfully constructed.
and slowly but surely, I started to love art as a whole, meaninglessness as a whole, Many shows/literature gave curves to my passion of life, and I nowadays find practically everything very interesting or with the fascination of a child, Nowadays I like to live and I am more thankfully to be alive, and I have learnt to not take life seriously thanks to JOJOS Bizarre adventure, well I love jojos ,and would I like to tell the effect of this show on me but this rant, had been going for a long time now, lol, maybe another time or maybe not. I am able grasp that life is brimmed with fun things, and love is the greatest blessing to a man, to love a thing greater than himself is truly a virtue. Earlier in my life I despised the world for been this cold cruel to me, but now I am thankful because without it I couldn't been able to know the warmth of kindness.
But for FYI, I'm preparing for jee from this year, its been a lot of fun, I am a top ranker in institute. I think, If I am consistent like this, I would easily ace the exam but while writing this post, I realised, perhaps I do not want to be a engineer, I want to be something else, I do not want to work 9 to 5, but I want to do something I would Like to do 24 hours, I do not want a huge chunk of life working, and small chunk of enjoyment. lol, possibly I am a workaholic.
maybe I will be a writer?, lawyer?, psychologist?, Engineer?
but you know what? This thought is meaningless as well, because no matter where I end up, I know I will be alright!😊
Regards, My father.
(And I know no one cares) ( who cares I post something here, of my own free will, lol)
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2024.11.25 10:50 ruxxby Suprise ! by @vivi_llain
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2024.11.25 10:50 castironskilletset Cheating is better than pornography.
In survival sense they both are not needs, no man is gonna die if his wife doesnt have sex, and no woman is gonna die if his husband has a mistress.
In terms of relationship things get murky because relationship "needs" can go above and beyond the survival needs
We have evolved as a society where forcing someone to have sex just because they are married is seen as bad. But forcing someone to not have as much sex as they want just because they are married or are in a relationship is seen as acceptable.
Now you can say to the man, just use your hands and porn. But porn has detrimental effects on us, we get unfair expectations and unrealistic beauty standards. It's not good for men's mental health to watch too much porn.
But I hardly think it's fair to tell men to give up porn while also taking away sex from them.
Cheating is best alternative, it forces men to stay attractive, stay social, work on their game and fitness.
Just to be clear, I am not talking about paying camgirl or other pathetic stuff as cheating. Cheating should involve sex and emotions, best sex requires emotions.
It is healthier than porn, it widens social circle of men, it gets them out of their house. Yes, there are risks of STDs, etc but they can be prevented. On top of that, it reduces undue pressure on wives to satisfy their husbands and teach men life lessons that porn can't teach. Cheating can also help men judge their attractiveness.
A man watching porn is pathetic, a man cheating is attractive. It's better to be attractive.
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2024.11.25 10:50 LauraEis FINALLY full payment!
I just got my first real tasks, not that assessment bs! Honestly, I started to think that's just a way to make money from Outlier, to keep me in assessment payment all the time, but now it finally switched and I'm taking back everything I ever bitched about Outlier. ;-D
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2024.11.25 10:50 Better-Ad-342 تعلن شركة الدار البيضاء للبيئة عن حملة توظيف في عدة مناصب
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2024.11.25 10:50 Informal_Put_7325 F20
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2024.11.25 10:50 squidlipsyum Best Japanese Stores for “unique” accessories.
I’m thinking I might look into a silly driver cover or towel. Totoro for example.
Anyone know which stores might lean a bit more into this.
Playing a round over there too, was going to pack some by balls but they seem cheaper there than in Australia.
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2024.11.25 10:50 Aniketastron Censorship
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2024.11.25 10:50 Background_Beat_7321 Can I get honest feedback??
https://on.soundcloud.com/WNybMgcgQqL4LAaTA
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2024.11.25 10:50 Friendly_Emu_4206 Att jobba hemma, eller att vara "ledig" som chefen sa...
Är kontorsnisse på ett litet familjeföretag där vi både har flex och möjlighet till att jobba hemifrån.
För lite kontext har jag endast kört hemmifrån 2 dagar senaste månaden och kommit en timme senare en dag.
Har nyligen påbörjat en renovering och har därför de senaste veckorna haft diverse hantverkare hemma. Vissa hantverkare sköter sig själva medans andra ha efterfrågat om jag kan jobba hemifrån ifall det dyker upp frågor.
Hade elektrikern på besök för nån vecka sedan och nu skulle han komma igen och göra klart på torsdag. Meddelar där av på vårt morgonmöte på jobbet att jag avser att jobba hemma på torsdag pga besök av hantverkare.
Efter mötet ringer min chef och säger,
"att jag ska ta detta på rätt sätt men du har varit ledig en del det sista och det sticker i ögonen på vissa när vi har så mycket att göra, renovering och sånt får man ju hålla på med på kvällarna efter jobbet"Vist när man läser på Reddit när frågan har diskuterats tidigare, så slackas det rejält när vissa kör hemmifrån. Min filosofi är att så länge jobbet blir gjort så är det väl fine? Sen att man startar en tvätt eller går en promenad med hunden emellan är väl fan ingen biggy. Hade man räknat ihop all tid man snackar skit eller går på onödiga möten när man väl är på plats så är det lätt 2h av en dag ändå som går bort.
Sen får min chef gärna tipsa mig om hantverkare som jobbar på kvällstid eller på helgerna... /s
Min chef ska dock på resa nästan vecka till nån varm destination passande nog nu när vi har så mycket att göra.
Ibland får man väl bara tacka och ta emot som anställd haha. Tjänar ändå bra för min ålder och har bra kollegor i övrigt, så ska inte klaga egentligen, men ibland blir man lite TRÖTT över tondövheten och dubbelmoralen.
Slut-rantat för mig denna gång. Ha en go måndag!
(Postade i swedishproblems föst, men mods tyckte inte att det är relaterbart när man rantar över sitt jobb med knuten hand i fickan på Reddit istället för att stå på sig 🤷♂️)
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2024.11.25 10:50 --althea-- Where to buy a Disney chocolate advent calendar before the 1st?
Made a promise I forgot about.
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2024.11.25 10:50 throw-_-away1888 27 M UK. I'll show off for a feed 🤤 kik @ throw.away1888
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Hi! I have a Asus Vivobook15(X540UA) and after opening bios everything greys out I cannot edit anything please help me
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I applied for Spouse family visa from India. I only see “Standard” processing and no “Priority” appointments. Is the priority processing not available for India?
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2024.11.25 10:50 Butterfly3751 My god Blush is so good!
New listener here and I love this song
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2024.11.25 10:50 Glum_Focus_5069 !!HELP!! Crazy Ex
My friends crazy ex is running his new girlfriends name through the dirt and making up horrible lies about her and spreading them through TikTok’s, which includes the new girlfriends pictures,full name and place of work. This is defamation of character and giving away private information that could potentially lead to something horrible happening. If your willing to help a guy out the ex has a completely private account she’s posting on, be little spies, tell me what’s going on!! Dm for more info!!!
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2024.11.25 10:50 starcalled International student how much money need till graduate?
Hello guys I just want to know how much money need for international student, i mean 3 years for bachelor's degree
Well of course it's various person to person but if i say just stay frugal lifestyle and not a expensive Unv. What's you guys think from experienced
Thanks for advanced
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2024.11.25 10:50 ohitsham Best way to avoid pelvis pain from duty belt?
Not a cop, but work in field where I carry a handgun and magazines. The duty belt digs into my pelvis (my pelvis is pretty boney). I have 24/7 bruising there, and during the days I work, the pelvis is a swollen bump.
What do you guys do to help with this? Thanks
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2024.11.25 10:50 Synthesyndicate Is there any way to turbo this Chad out without burning through my entire hand?
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2024.11.25 10:50 Hot_Guys_In_My_DMS This game really doesn’t hold your hand…
No, it grabs you by the wrist and handcuffs you to the path. You can’t even choose what weapons you bring to an encounter. You can barely steer your horse off the preset path when following someone. I was playing the sheep herding mission with John and discovered that I couldn’t even hold the gun at my side as every time I tried to, Arthur would bring it back up to hold with two hands. It’s like the game doesn’t even want you to play it, it wants to play itself.
I we ever get RDR3, my one wish is that the missions aren’t so restrictive and controlled.
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2024.11.25 10:50 MathematicianThick95 the Monday blues
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