Rambling and Unsure Of What I Want to believe
2024.11.27 00:40 ThrowAwayGrimoire Rambling and Unsure Of What I Want to believe
So I may or may not be considering Christianity again.
When I first started out in spirituality, I had looked into Christian Witchcraft. But within the past four years, I went from still wanting to be Christian, to trying out Quakerism a bit, to eventually shutting out the idea of God, trying to find a path that would let me feel free to be myself.
I first realized I was queer in highschool. By now, I know that I'm nonbinary and biromantic neptunic, as I can feel romantic attraction towards anyone (once I'm already close to them, that is, so I'm demi as well), but only feel sexual attraction towards those with afab bodies.
Because of my queerness, I haven't felt safe, loved, or welcomed in most Christian spaces. All the hate I'd seen and had been barraged with, along with finding many inconsistences in most Christian teaching - including what I knew of the bible - lead me to hate most of Christianity.
Even then, I eventually found that I didn't want to completely reject the idea of God.
For the past year, I've flip flopped on whether or not I believe in God. I like the idea of a God who doesn't care about what humans do as long as they aren't hurting each other. As well as one who's will is my own.
I've been really into Unitarian Universalism for a couple years now, which I absolutely love looking into and hope to be a part of after I finally move from my toxic (and quite frankly, abusive) parents house.
Right now I'm confused, as I find myself...curious, I guess? About exploring Christian faith again, but definitely a different type than the religion I was raised in. I've started looking into ChristoPaganism, and it seems really interesting, though I haven't seen much about how to incorporate both beliefs. I figured I'd look into it more. I did find some resources, and had been set to go read some pdf books I downloaded on ChristoPaganism.
But now....I'm thinking that maybe I'm becoming scared again. Of what happens after death. Is there a way for me to look into Christianity without losing myself to that fear again? Thinking that if I try this, but end up leaving the faith again, I'll only end up terrified of going to hell. I guess I still feel that way...
If I mix my current spiritual beliefs and desires with Christian ideals, would that just lead to me losing salvation? Did I lose it in the first place? Was there ever even a need to be saved? Maybe hell isn't real. Maybe sin isn't some evil, dark, and satanic thing that takes you away from God's presence. Maybe sin is bringing harm to others and to nature. Maybe I don't have to be afraid.
I don't know. I really don't.
Is this even for me at all? I'm just scaring myself more, now, thinking about this. I don't know where to go from here.
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2024.11.27 00:40 Proper_Marionberry_1 Wrestling shoe covers
Does anybody use wrestling shoe covers? If so, do you like them? Do you recommend wrestlers use them? Curious to see how many people actually use them or just change out of their shoes when not on the mat. Do you get the rubber version from Rudis or a different kind?
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2024.11.27 00:40 No-Grapefruit4431 Because yesterday was such a hit 😅😂
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2024.11.27 00:40 MinnesottaBona Binangkal mula sa malapit na panaderya.
Secret menu item ng panaderya sa amin. 🤣 Nauubos agad at madalas hindi na umaabot sa display case.
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2024.11.27 00:40 PradaJay777 $LUNR The market isn’t for flat landers!
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2024.11.27 00:40 AromaticLadder3 Finally a place for that third straw
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2024.11.27 00:40 OldandBlue Bélmez Faces - Wikipedia
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2024.11.27 00:40 TheRedditDesigner Pep Guardiola's Interviews/Press Conferences
Is it just me or has anyone else noticed that Pep has become more and more difficult to understand in his recent interviews/press conferences? His accent and rate of speech seems to have increased by x10 and I can't make out a word he is saying. I'm starting to think it's mind games to avoid having to answer questions in full detail and to leave the media a bit short changed with content or just overall confused, it wouldn't surprise me.
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2024.11.27 00:40 Radiant_Tomato3593 SHOCK VIDEO: Kamala comes out of hiding with bizarre 29 second video in which she appears to be HAMMERED, and seems to be subtly encouraging an INSURRECTION
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2024.11.27 00:40 SpecialistDivide1161 I need someone to finish my song
Actually, i have composed a song and i have a faith on this song that people will like it (i have got good reaction from few of my friends). I have this love song which I have composed it with guitar and lyrics. I just need someone to mix and master this song for me at a minimum cost (less than 5k, I’m low on a budget). As it is a soothing song, I need some peaceful instrument in the song. Please help me if you guys know anybody.
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2024.11.27 00:40 spikeshinizle Synthwave song ft Sam Harris
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2024.11.27 00:40 TheRealGigaChad_ NBA 2k build which one?
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2024.11.27 00:40 Da_Tourist 2022 CPO CX-5 Fair Price?
My Mazda dealership is quoting $20,500 for a certified pre-owned 2022 CX-5 AWD with 2.5 S Select Package. It has 71k miles on it. Is it a fair price?
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2024.11.27 00:40 Danpool13 I know my math skills aren't great, but...
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2024.11.27 00:40 colossalchris94 How do you organize your binders?
I'm having some OCD over my bindebinders. I only have 9 pocket pages in my binder and I like to store my useful cards which can have full playsets. I don't know if I like arranging them straight across to the other page or just 3 on the top and then start the next row underneath 1 with 1. I know there are 12 pocket binders, but right now this is all I have. Would like to hear everyones preferences and ideas.
Also how does everyone store their bulk cards. I try to organize by rarity and then alphabetize and keep the rotation stuff away from the out of rotation cards.
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2024.11.27 00:40 _Iteza Time to pose the boys!
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2024.11.27 00:40 cell-NK Cuida a tus hijos
Escribo esto para que mi testimonio quede grabado en alguna parte
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, fui abusada por mi primo de 13-14 años. Por mucho tiempo me quedé callada porque nadie me explicó que estaba mal, yo solo sabia que me hacia senir muy mal. Cuando mi mamá se dio cuenta, me dijo "si eso vuelve a pasar, tendré que decirle a tu papá", justo lo que me decÃa cuando me portaba mal.
Durante años crecà pensando que era mi culpa. Cuando tenia unos 9-10 años, un papá de una amiga mÃa también abusó de mÃ. Obviamente no dije nada, no querÃa meterme en problemas.
A los 18 años dejé de vivir con mi madre y fui a casa de mi papá. Ahà fue cuando muchos recuerdos llegaron a mÃ, cuando no dejaba de pensar "¿por qué mi mamá no hizo nada?". Cuando ella se enteró, las cosas siguieron como si nada. Él nunca dejo de visitarnos cuando quisiese, yo nunca dejé de ir a su casa, yo siempre tenia que respetarlo como mi primo mayor y obedecerlo, por supuesto.
En cuanto empecé a vivir con mi papá dejé de ir a casa de mis abuelos y a convivir con ella y su familia. Un dÃa, a mis 20, decidà preguntarle por qué, querÃa saber por qué ignoró todo. Y mi madre simplemente dijo que de todos modos, nunca me penetró, asà que no habÃa pasado nada.
A dÃa de hoy mi primo tiene 3 hijas, en algún momento me armé de valor y le dije a su esposa lo que él me hizo en su adolescencia. No me creyó, para ella el hecho de que fuese yo quien se alejó de todos dejó claro que solo era alguien problemática.
Hoy tengo 26 años, por mi profesión convivo con gente de todas las edades, incluyendo niños. Algunos padres, cuando les doy folletos de prevención de abusó infantil, se sienten insultado, creen que los estoy acusando de abusar de sus hijos o de no cuidarlos bien. Entiendo que es algo sobre lo que nadie quiere escuchar, nadie quiere pensar que su hijo puede pasar por eso, pero no podemos ignorar las cosas, el mundo en el que vivimos alberga gente muy mala.
No hay que quedarnos callados, si eres padre, cuÃda a tus niños, incluso de otros niños.
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2024.11.27 00:40 Bluefin34 Mega Altaria 462138365458
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2024.11.27 00:40 GotABigDeck You think I'm buying DeWalt, Milwaukee or Knipex?
HA! I might as well flush my money down the toilet!
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2024.11.27 00:40 Sure_Relation9764 About Sunday and Summoners
What are you guys thinking about Sunday? He'll be able to make Topaz (and other characters with summons) viable as hyper carries? Saw someone playing Topaz Sunday and Robin on new moc but the guy had e1 and s1 on everyone so it was not very convincing, anyhow, his Topaz was dealing 300k damage (550k with Numby follow up), for me it looked pretty good damage...
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2024.11.27 00:40 Important-Document90 Give this femboy tasks to do in public/around town. I have a car, panties and can dress up…05ec264e9ac45f3a702e8647503f32e82366b023bb61c11a30bd04175f32acce4e
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2024.11.27 00:40 itsover9000dollars Why is the answer 4,000 & not 3,000?
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2024.11.27 00:40 bot_olini La fórmula Salinas: el libro que expone a las redes del poder en México
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2024.11.27 00:40 OftenXilonen What happened to the MAG241C?
144hz, 1ms, 24inch. For its price, it's one of the best monitors MSI have released, in my opinion. You get 2 usb slots for peripherals, and options for hdmi and dp. Now that I'm looking for one to match my other two mag241Cs, I cant find a single one, even a 2nd hand.
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