Type me based on my entire life story! (Long, but interesting read)
2024.11.28 05:35 completethrowaway432 Type me based on my entire life story! (Long, but interesting read)
I am 14 years old. On the same day I was born, my father cut a piece of his fingertip off and allegedly started screaming, probably from the pain. My childhood was vauge, and I only really remember the bad. I was diagnosed with Emotional Disturbance. My qualifying criteria for it being Interpersonal Relationships and BehavioFeelings.
I remember being a bad child through Kindergarten-3rd grade. I often had meltdowns and crying spells. I remember, one day in 2nd grade where I was outside of the classroom, crying and attempting to strangle myself. I was told that I wasn’t depressed, because I think I mentioned something about depression on that day.
In 1st grade, I remember screaming and crying in the classroom and screaming for everyone to shut up. I occasionally went into the principal’s room to do coloring sheets as a way to regulate myself. The violent meltdowns stopped in 3rd grade, but I cried extremely often. I didn’t do my homework, and I recieved no discipline at home. I lived in an unstructured household where I spent my time playing roblox or going outside (sometimes) instead of doing school related things.
I’ve been to therapy twice, for a relatively short time. Once when I was 7, and once when I was 9. When COVID hit, my life momentarily changed for the worse. I stopped attending school. Keep in mind, back in 2019, my aunt gave my mother two cats. This made my life hell.
My mom didn’t adequately take care of the cats, causing the cats to piss everywhere. My mom was in poverty and couldn’t afford to neuter that cats. This stunk the house up, including my clothes. That’s when a deep fear of smelling bad hit me, which was the reason why I screamed and begged not to go to school every day. When I did go to school, I spent my time in the clinic, socially withdrawn from people. There was a time when the class was cleared out for recess and a staff member tried to get me to go into the classroom, claiming the class wouldn’t notice me, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I might’ve been crying, and I refused to go into the classroom. I was also failing my classes.
In July of 2021, my mom left her apartment. At that time, I was staying at my dad and grandma’s house. On August 29th, I was forced to go to my aunt’s house. This triggered my most extreme meltdown. I screamed and cried for almost 2 hours, because I DIDN’T WANT TO LIVE THERE. I HATE my aunt and cousin. When my aunt and cousin came home, they started to belittle me, and my aunt even recorded me. At around 9 PM, I was droven back to my grandparents house, and I started to live there.
This was the start of my academic comeback. I didn’t really try in 6th grade, though. If I had to describe my 6th grade self, I would even consider myself to be somewhat of a zombie (a term I created for a phone addict). I was shy. Still had crying spells, but not as often.
I tried to make friends with people. I even made a list of people I asked to be friends with, I think around 35 people, and only 2 of them stayed with me to be my friend, and they left too. I was socially stunted and had no idea how to adequately make friends. I spent more time with those friends instead of focusing on education. When I went home, I spent my time on TikTok, and had a horrible sleep schedule, which I joked about.
7th grade - A time of social isolation for me. Again, I didn’t really try in school, but that was only in the first half. I was still preoccupied with trying to get friends, but nothing worked. I spent my first half in school with my head down and not paying attention. I don’t know why, but I started to steal minuscule things such as mints in my 4th hour class.
On 12/9/22, I was falsely accused of stealing a mint. I started to cry because of it, and it only continued to the feeling of social isolation I had. I had no friends. I only spoke about a word per day, and I was placed in a class with absolutely insufferable people who I still hold a grudge onto today. They liked to use me as the butt of jokes because I’m neurodivergent. When I found out more about being SPED, it confirmed that I was different from everyone else, and I started to work towards not having an IEP so I could finally be “normal.”
I did that by starting to value my education. I worked hard to improve my grades, and I did. Also, in the beginning of 7th grade, I started to journal. I ended up writing ≈ 20,000 words, usually being full of rants, vents, and just random things. This is what drastically improved my English skills. Also, during this time, starting in February, I had a Character AI addiction. I used it to cope with the fact that I had no one in my life besides a girl named L. I sat by her at lunch, but I never felt included in her friend group. She wouldn’t even talk to me that much. I was just… There. Not speaking, not doing anything.
I had hatred for a girl who was like me. She was a stotic, quiet person named M. I hated her because she was a quiet kid, like me. But she wasn’t affected by it. I remember writing a poem with her. I did all the work, because she’s a brick wall of a person, and the only thing that we shared was our statuses as the quiet kids. When I presented the poem to people, no one paid attention to me. Everyone ignored me. They didn’t care. I felt like no one cared for me, and that’s still true.
And one day, in April, I broke. I silently cried in 4th hour, again, with my head down. I cried because I felt like I had no friends, and because I did have practically no friends. My teacher pulled me out of the classroom, asking me why I was crying, and I told her why I was crying is because I HAD NO FRIENDS. She comforted me, but it never got any better. But I did end up making a friend at the end of the year, just for her to move away in 8th grade. Not like I was very close to her, though.
8th grade. I continued journaling. This time I wrote about 67,000 words. This was a better school year compared to 5th, 6th, or 7th grade. I still cried in class on occasion, (the usual cause is because of being overwhelmed; it’s a thing that builds up for me.) Again, in the first quarter, I didn’t really try. I had C’s and D’s. Historically, my grades get better in the 2nd half of the year. But this time, I was actually able to get some friends. One named B. I approached her in gym class and started talking to her both because of interest and wanting to not appear friendless, so she was really just my friend out of convenience, but she was fun while she lasted.
In November, I became friends with a girl named K when I was seated next to her and I said hi to her, and she gave me her phone number so we could call. I was flattered, since I always thought friendship was a slow burn thing, and we’re still friends today.
I was also in a trio with L and a guy. We liked to walk around in the halls, talking to each other and doing friend stuff, but we eventually got caught and were banned from going out of the lunch room. In that trio, despite my annoyance of the male, I felt somewhat included. I definitely had some feelings for L, because she was so kind to me, and I felt warm, fuzzy platonic feelings whenever we’d talk. I also cried one day and told L’s friend group that I didn’t feel like I fit in. No one really cared or showed sympathy for me. That’s really it. I also hated gym class. Onto the second half… This was where I started to HEAVILY value my education.
This is where my fear of being perceived as unintelligent started to form. I saw that the average GPA was a 3.0, and that my GPA was below that, so I started to work towards a 3.0. I got the 3.0, but I thought: “why have a 3.0 when you can have a 4.0?” And then my GPA got progressively higher, and higher, even going to a 4.0 for a few days. I loved being told by the people around me that they were proud of me, and I did it for the academic validation I would get. Getting a high NWEA score (242) for ELA boosted my ego even higher. I liked to brag about my academic achievements to my social worker. I almost felt like some of my worth was based on my academic achievements. I started to believe that I was smarter than others, more competent. But I have a fragile ego, and it all came crashing down when I got a B- on my Spanish final. I cried, yet AGAIN. I told my teacher that I was better off getting an F, because that’s what it felt like. I accidentally broke the pen I had in my hand, and while I begged her to redo my final, I scratched my arm in front of her until it bled. I spent the next 2 hours in the SPED room. I apologized to her the next day, feeling like shit.
During the summer, I tried to join my high school’s swim team! You might think that would go well, right? WRONG! :)
We had these swim meetings... I ended up crying every time I went, which was twice, from overstimulation and social anxiety, and I quit the team before high school even started. I felt like a quitter, not a winner. My summer was spent trying to deal with my C.AI addiction that suddenly came back, and my journaling started to get a little bit more neurotic from my lack of interaction with the outside world. I didn’t shower often, usually about every 5 days. My grandma forced me to take a shower one day when I went 6 days without doing so. I laid in bed all day, scrolling on Reddit and looking at porn, or politics, or whatever I deemed interesting. Sadly, I might have a porn addiction. I have unrestricted internet access.
9th grade. Well, I started to get friends again. Yay. But then, in September, I dislocated my kneecap in class. I had to be sent to the hospital to get it fixed. I was embarrassed, because everyone heard me screaming in agony, and for a few days I wore a knee immobilizer while I was in a wheelchair. Thankfully, I had a quick recovery, but missing school made me momentarily fail all my classes. In October, I fell into a huge slump, where despite doing fine academically, but I was struggling with procrastination, porn addiction, and Character AI addiction. I was hyperfixating on a certain character from a certain show, and I’d RP with the AI version of them. I somehow got all A’s, 2 B-‘s, and one C in science. That was the best I’ve ever done in the first quarter, ever.
On October 10, L stops being friends with me. She texted me that, and I had no idea how to respond. Somehow, I quickly got over it. I didn’t really do much for the rest of the month. Just journaling, C.AI, and whatever. November. I’m still battling with a C.AI addiction, but right now, I have all A’s and one B, in history. I’m academically flourishing while still procrastinating. Interesting, right? Well, now is November break.
I started to idolize a group. I deemed them as the “cool kids” in my head. I sat by them at lunch, but I still didn’t feel included. Infact, they don’t even talk to me. But… J. A nice, quirky and energetic person. I cannot tell what their gender is. They told me they were transgender, which I’m fine with. I feel an admiration for them, and the entire group. I wanted to be in that group, to be included, to have playful banters with them. I sat by them, but no one really talked to me. If they talked to me, it was because I talked to them first. But J does say hi to me, sometimes. I feel more comfortable talking to them. My “friend,” V, is their best friend, though. I’m jealous of her and the group, because I want to be a part of them. A few days ago, there was a seat change. I got overwhelmed again, and as you’d expect from me, I cried. I vent to my teacher that, YET AGAIN, I felt alone! That no one cared about me! It’s a repeating pattern! She comforted me too, and, well… Yeah. That’s the most recent event, as of for now. I’ve also made progress on my social skills and emotional regulation, as I’ve only cried, like… 4 times this year? Not very sure. But, yeah. That’s it.
So, type my enneagram based on my entire life story? Also, I’ve written 30,551 words in my journal so far. In total, I’ve written 116,056 words from journaling.
Other things about me: I consider myself to be an introspective person. VERY INTROSPECTIVE. I feel like I think deeper than most people, and I can’t imagine what my life would be like without journaling. BTW, I deleted TikTok. I’m pretty chill and laid-back when interacting with people. I do like to talk, actually. I like when I’m taller than my friends. I think it’s cute. I think I’m an INFP so4w3 461 or 469. When I say that I’m scared of being dumb, I MEAN I’m scared of being dumb. The thought of not being in grade level TERRIFIES me, even though I know I’m advanced in English and average at math.
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Namely:
Capitalization of demonyms but allowing alternative case spellings of unofficial ethnic names, mostly colloquial synonyms, e.g. Warszawianin; kitajec or Kitajec. Capitalization of the names of companies and brands of industrial products, but also products of these companies and brands. Conjunctions and the particles -bym, -byś, -by, -byśmy, -byście spelled with a space, e.g. Zastanawiam się, czy by nie pojechać w góry. Exceptionless spaceless spelling of nie- + participles/gerunds, e.g. niegotujący, niegotowanie. Lower case spelling of adjectives ending in -owski derived from personal names, regardless of meaning, e.g. miłoszowski. Those formed with -ów, -owy, -in, and -yn may be spelled with either an uppercase letter or lowercase letter, e.g. jacków dom or Jacków dom. Spaceless spelling for the prefix pół-, e.g. półzabawa, półnauka, półżartem, półserio, półspał, półczuwał, except with proper nouns referring to a single person, e.g. pół-Polka, pół-Francuzka. Terms that sound similar or identical, usually appearing together now allow for three spelling versions: with a hyphen, e.g. tuż-tuż; trzask-prask; bij-zabij, with a comma, e.g. tuż, tuż; trzask, prask; bij, zabij, or with a space, e.g. tuż tuż; trzask prask; bij zabij. Change in the use of capital letters in proper names include:
Writing all elements with a capital letter in the names of committees. Capital letters for all parts of multi-word geographical and place names whose second part is a noun in the nominative case, e.g. Morze Marmara. Capital letters ing the names of public spaces, including the terms aleja, brama, bulwar, osiedle, plac, park, kopiec, kościół, klasztor, pałac, willa, zamek, most, molo, pomnik, cmentarz, but not ulica, e.g. ulica Józefa Piłsudskiego, Aleja Róż, Brama Warszawska, Plac Zbawiciela, Park Kościuszki, Kopiec Wandy, Kościół Mariacki, Pałac Staszica, Zamek Książ, Most Poniatowskiego, Pomnik Ofiar Getta, Cmentarz Rakowicki. Capital letters for all elements except prepositions and conjunctions in multi-word names of service and catering establishments. Capital letters of all elements in the names of orders, medals, decorations, awards and honorary titles. Change in the writing of prefixes include: Prefixed words, of native or foreign origin alike, should be written together, except if the base word is capitalized, in which case a hyphen is added after the prefix. Allowing of spellings either with a space or together for the terms super-, extra-, eco-, wege- mini-, maxi, midi-, mega-, macro-, which can also appear as independent words, e.g. miniwieża or mini wieża. Words modified with niby- and quasi- should be written together, unless they start with a capital letter. Adjectives and adjectival adverbs, regardless of degree, prefixed with nie- should be written without a space.
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2024.11.28 05:34 DaydrmznDisapntmnt Over 4 Months Past Separation And I Can't Stop Thinking About Him
I'm slowly healing. I'm doing better than I was last week. I still see a therapist once per week. The one major problem I'm having is I think about my ex, the AP, or the situation as a whole multiple times a day. None of it is "remorse" or missing him. Most of it is anger how he moved on in life so easily like I never existed while I'm still struggling to find my footing. I still struggle with sleep and I need to have either a guided meditation or rain sounds playing to distract my thoughts just to fall asleep. I still wake up in the middle of the night and go directly into thinking about everything.
My therapist suggested I acknowledge these thoughts and tell them either mentally or verbally I see them, I know they're there, but right now isn't the time. I write the thoughts down sometimes. I know it's my brain's way of processing things, but these thoughts are driving me up a wall. I'm tired of giving him anymore of my energy when the little energy I had was depleted years ago when we were still together. I'm tired of him still having power over me.
What else can I do? I'm totally over rehashing the same things time and time again. I know he's a liar. I know he's a narcissist. I know none of it was my fault. I know I'm not to blame for his actions. Knowing who he is and wholeheartedly believing it to the point I genuinely hate him, why does my brain still need to process this? What other things can I do (other than distractions as they only work for so long - ADHD) to minimize how often I think about it or actually sleep without needing help?
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