Broken and Soulless
2025.01.19 06:09 mxdozz10 Broken and Soulless
“The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts”
I sent you this just three days after we broke up. I remember those times like they were just last week. At the time, you were still very anxious about your decision. Calling me in the middle of the night unsure about whether you made the right choice or not. I still remember the two calls I didnt answer because every fibre of my being wanted to beg you to rethink your decision but I didnt want to add to your misery. I also didnt know if pushing you to change your mind would have exposed my lack of self respect pushing you even further away. So I decided to only be there for you when you needed. I decided to show you I loved you by letting you go and respecting your freedom of choice. However, my heart felt that one day youll come back to me. Even now, I still harbor the same hope. Even though you’re probably with someone else now. Even though I could be leaving North America for years in just a few months. I still hope that youd end up in my arms again
Perhaps I was wrong afterall in thinking that we were destined for one another. I think about what couldve been if I just picked up that phone and asked you to reconsider. I wonder what couldve happened if I was selfish. Where would we have been today. Would things have been different. Subhanallah, 8 months pass and still every fibre of my being wants to beg you to reconsider even after everything that happened. I dont know how to move on from you. I dont know how to lose hope. I know I’ll never forget you. I dont know how to think about our cloud of memories without feeling my heart sink to the earth’s core. I dont know how to stop loving you. Perhaps my inability to understand why you felt anxiety, fatigue, and guilt when you were with me is the essence of why it didnt work between us. I probably didnt know you well enough to understand why you were feeling what you were feeling. Forgive me, when we were together I was so so so happy. So much so, that I assumed that you were as well. I tried so hard everyday to just make you smile thinking that the effort was enough to assure you of a fulfilling life together. Maybe it was the effort that added to your worries. Maybe it was my undying love for you and my unwillingness to give up on us that you regretfully couldn’t reciprocate. Maybe I didnt do a good enough job of showing you how happy I was to call you mine. Maybe it was my unhealthy need to control all aspects of my life that made me think that how you feel about me was dictated solely by myself. I have never felt so powerless in my life it is suffocating. If I dont reach out, im left trying to pick up the pieces of my broken heart. If I reach out, I am forced to face the never ending anxiety, loneliness, and shame that comes with your most likely rejection. I’d selfishly put you in a position where you have to again say no.
If a lasic surgery helped change my perception of who you are as a person, I would need a million of them to stop seeing you as the beautiful, kind, funny, sincere, and caring girl that you are. I miss you ever so dearly. I love you ever so intensely. I ask God every day to heal my heart but inside what I really want is for you to come back to me. I want to wish you all the happiness in the world. I want to wish you all the inner peace in the world. I want to wish that whoever you’re with is treating you as good as I have if not better. However, what I really want is to share all of that with you because without you I feel as though Ill live broken and soulless forever.
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2025.01.19 06:09 Eastern_Welcome6792 Friday Carry
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2025.01.19 06:09 Esaroufim Did seeing jod be so evil ruin this for anyone else?
Star Wars is so thematically about redemption, and it’s part of what makes it such a special franchise. It’s really disappointing to me the direction the story ended up taking with jod in general. Maybe it’s a credit to Jude law as an actor that I wanted to lit his character so much, or that he ended up bothering me so much, but it just felt off brand and empty to me. I was really loving the story too, so (no offense to the child actors) it hurts not to be able to root for the most interesting character.
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2025.01.19 06:09 ItsTrulyKustom Any Advice for Korea?
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2025.01.19 06:09 Myheadishollow Who wins?
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2025.01.19 06:09 penestrated I watched them dance!
Hello!
This evening around 8:30, I had my second known experience. Southern Oregon coast.
I was walking by my bedroom window and thought I saw a trickster light. I've seen this series of events happen a few times but haven't chalked it up to much: An amber light will appear from thin air, travel south on the horizon, and slowly fade out. Then it will reappear about 10 seconds later and do the same sequence a couple times. I've seen this happen on its own maybe 4 times.
I stopped tonight and watched, it did the thing but instead of fading out it just stayed put at the end of its line. My boyfriend walked in the room asking what I was doing and it went away! (We experienced a show of lights together on the 6th this month, it's in my comment history if you care to read my first experience.)
While he was showering, I sat in front of the same window. I watched them appear, 2 or 3 coming and going, quite dim. Back and forth, disappearing and coming back. In my heart of hearts I wanted to see more so badly even though I have been quite anxious since first viewing them.
I closed my eyes and meditated on love. I thought about how much I love being alive, the love of the earth, the love in my home, I was just throwing out the line of love. Without thinking it in words, I expressed that I would love to see them again. I opened my eyes to nothing for about enough time to scan the area, and then...
The whole clearing LIT UP!!! 7, 8 or more of these rich, amber lights came dancing in from every direction! They were pairing up and twirling in circles, flying at one another and going fast!! And they were SO bright now compared to the passive viewing I had done just earlier. When they danced together in a circle they would slow down. I mean it was just marvelous, I'm grinning just writing while I remember! I felt chills in my entire body, I listened to my heart and got closer to the window. My heart was racing but instead of fear, I was so excited. The biggest smile just absolutely giggling. I had a strong feeling I can only describe as affirmation and the word Yes resonated in my mind.
As I calmed down after euphoria, the lights slowed down and started to twinkle away. I called my friend who witnessed the same thing (or damn near same) I first saw on the 6th, only a few days ago. I ran outside and was describing to him the few lights I was still seeing (now dimmer and slower) and we just expressed amazement together that this was really happening. I'll ask him if I can post his video here or maybe he'd like to post it himself. 🙂
Now I'm very calm and happy. Thinking about the show I saw tonight still gives me chills on recall. I'm very excited to see them again and continue to look inside myself during and after their appearance.
Thank you for reading and may you find the love!
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2025.01.19 06:09 read-alt Can I split Andrei Rublev into 3 parts?
I am watching tarkovs films in order but I am very busy as I am a student and have a difficult time coming up Next weekend I want to split it into 2 parts what is the best way to do this ?
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2025.01.19 06:09 DeXLecT D'arce Champ
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2025.01.19 06:09 gdubb22 Saw this on FB reels
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2025.01.19 06:09 macgyverj Commercial range in home
Hello, I have a 48" American Professional Ranges(model AR4842GDIALLP) Range that has multiple issues that I need help with.
1st the main trouble is lighting the bigger oven side. I can see the light glowing from the ignighter but it only heats up sometimes. When I listen it sounds like the gas is sputtering. The smaller oven works and the burners work so I know I have gas coming to the oven
2nd The burners. I can always start one and it makes the clicking igniting sound but every once in awhile when I try to start a second burner the igniter clicks once and not continual till it ignites. I've deep cleaned around igniters multiple times. It also happens irregularly so I can't figure it out.
3rd does anyone know where to find a manual PDF for this oven?
4th does anyone know how to change the light bulb in the oven?
Background: My mother bought this when she lived in the house for me and my eight siblings. And when I bought the house for my parents it came along with but it's kind of a pain in the butt. I've called multiple appliance repair people and no one will come out to my area an hour+ north of Seattle.
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