The chaotic Story so far …
2025.01.21 09:50 LasseRFarnsworth The chaotic Story so far …
Sorry for my English, obviously not my first language 😉
BTW since there is a chance that someone of the story reads our story, well “Hello there^^”
So myself (m 4X years) and JPEG (f 4X years) have been together for over 20 years. For me JPEG was my first girlfriend and everything coming with it. But deep in my heart I knew I am kinky, queer and strange (also ADHD). But JPEG is very heteronormative and mono. During our university days we dabbled a bit into kink and swinging with a couple we where friends with. Unfortunately, our first visit to a club turned really sour so no kink and such for the next 10 years. After I finished a long contract we traveled the world for a year. During that time we met CASSETTE (F 4x years) from another continent and JUMPER (F 3x years) from our home country. CASSETTE was an instant crush for JPEG and she even told CASETTE that she would leave me for her. And even stuff like poly or threesomes was for me on the table. But well CASETTE has some relationship issues and, well JPEG is mono and straight. So we formed a friendship and I watched the last 10 years during remote calls and the occasional visit their awkward friendship. Both of them enjoying spending time together and such .. but you know in a total not queer way.
During these years I had my share of situations that could have turned very sexy with a open relationship but Is stayed faithful. Because Mono and such.
JUMPER became a good friend of us. She is very queer and open. So for me she was always a inspiration for a way of life that I found interesting. We became best friends, and more than once I wished we where open, but since JUMPER and myself love JPEG too much to hurt her, nothing happened. We had even holidays with 3 persons, which could have ended with us all three in a bed, but again JPEG is totally straight and mono.
Well I am member of the “Chaos” the European hacker scene. JUMPER is also there, so the last years our little “getaway” was to go to chaos events. For these of you who don’t know the chaos computer club, just imagine the events like a anime con, crossed with a furry convention and a bit of burning man mixed in with more lights and computer. It is queer, strange, interesting and absolutely not neurotypical ^^. For JUMPER and myself these events where always a yearly friendship event. A lot of talking and such. JPEG sometimes would come with me and visit the city but would always stay in a tourist mode. You know visiting the city, walking the event but not interacting much or grabbing a soldering iron.
At the start of 2024 I had a breakdown, and told JPEG that I am bi, I am not mono. I really need kink in my life and I would like to have sex with men. That I craved BDSM and that stuff we did for the last 20 years was not enough. While we had some toys and books, JPEG never really engaged with it, because she was mono etc. We had a big discussion but nothing came out of it, but we visited a local sex store and a bit more kink became our routine.
A while after that breakdown another chaos event was on the schedule. But since it was a bit farer aways and close to JPEGS Birthday she wanted to come. Sure, so we spend a nice time there. Just JPEG and myself. We enjoyed the event and JPEG was interacting with a lot of folks, visiting nerdy events in town, soldering and other stuff. Like 5 minutes in the event and she was fully integrated. But still she was not a nerd ^^.
Two weeks after the event JPEG came to me and said that we needed to talk. During that event she met this nice gay guy and she wanted to hook me up with him. So she finally started accounts on the nerdy socials and started to write with him. Well it turned out that he was in fact not gay but very straight, but queer as fuck and also poly. And the two started to hook up and write more and more. And JPEG wanted that we switched to poly. Sure, lets talk. And we talked and talked and talked. Because JOYSTICK (M 3x years) and JPEG where absolutely incapable of arranging dates. So I sat and listened to her, and talked, because I though sure, if she wants to open she should have also the first date. But it was antagonizing to see their failed attempts in meeting up and seeing JPEG going from NRE to full blown annoyed with the situation.
But hey suddenly kink was in the books. Because JOYSTICK got her into the Idea of bdsm. Well, sure why not. But actually, it turned out we are both switches and JPEG had some ideas left from before her opening up. But she also went to ultra queer, like rainbow merch and such.
She became a bit frustrated with JOYSTICK, but finally after 6 months we went to another chaos event, and JOYSTICK was also there. And finally on the 4th day of the event both of them finally scheduled 2 hours in our hotel room. Because JOYSTICK was with MANUAL (F 4x years) they spend most days just running past each other. But finally MANUAL and myself looked at each other and the two scurried of, and I spend a nice evening talking to MOTHERBOARD and LED (another poly person, f 2x) about poly and the world.
Everything went quite well for JPEG and everyone was more or less happy. The last day of the event we 4 went out for some food and it was quite nice.
But still JPEG and JOYSTICK where not really able to make new dates and a while later JOYSTICK started to ghost JPEG for some time. Meanwhile I gave JUMPER finally a call that I was now officially poly and we could have a date. So we had a nice weekend. When I arrived home JPEG was a bit miffed. But nothing I really could lay my finger on. Unfortunately I got some health issues so that sexy time was not so much on the agenda with JPEG and myself. Then in December, the BIG chaos event, the congress was coming up. We all had hotels in the same spot, so in total we were a bigger group ^^. We met other nice kinky poly nerdy folks and made our friend group bigger. But unfortunately during the event it became clear that all our talking between JPEG and myself where under different assumptions. I always talked and tried to make arrangements for both of us and also for a general idea. JPEG was always talking just for herself, and for that exact situation. So like kissing other persons was ok, but just for that exact date with that person. So that was the reason why she was miffed with me and JUMPER. Because she just opened up our relationship for that one DATE with JOYSTICK on that one event. And since she hadn’t made a date with JOYSTICK on that event right now, I couldn’t have something with JUMPER (or MANUAL or LED, both grew close in the last months) . Well, so I called of all ideas of dates. And we talked and talked again. Pfffff, well thanks to all the new poly friends we are now on a better track. But well the last year was an interesting time. And that just scratches the surface ^^.
But I really like the poly community. Having suddenly a support network of nice people to talk to, to be honest and being my real queer self is just so much better. Guess this is sort of my just wanting to tell that crazy story to someone. I am sort of looking forward what 2025 will bring.
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