19F I have no life nor will to live and it’s eating away at me inside.
2025.02.02 03:00 pleadeththefifth 19F I have no life nor will to live and it’s eating away at me inside.
First off, I don’t want anyone to mention my age as i have had these feelings pretty much since I’ve known myself and gained enough consciousness. I say this because I realize alot of ppl on here tend to use it as an example that i should keep going…
For as long as i can remember, I’ve never felt truly loved, or happy. I have no family or friends that i can truly rely on be there for me, it feels like there’s always this disconnect even with the people l that are closest to me in real life, i end up always having to come online to feel like an active member of society because the truth is, I don’t feel like i exist in the real world. I also recently quit my job which doesn’t help because it was basically my only way of distancing myself from my reality and the only place i really ever had a social life even when I wasn’t treated the best but the cons outweighed the pros so i ended up finding myself in a constant loop of waking up everyday having this deep feeling of existential dread on my shoulders.
In hs, i had (still do) really bad acne and hyperpigmentation so it doesn’t help my situation because it makes me even more depressed and seen as less than by people and i don’t blame them. I wouldn’t be interested in me either, especially from just a 3rd person perspective. I no longer take much pride in my appearance (As i type I’m literally bed rotting and on my 3rd day streak of not cleaning myself 🙏), which still wasn’t that good to begin with. I hate looking in the mirror because it always feels like i have no redeemable qualities. I tried going to a dermatologist to fix my issues and ended quitting before i could get to pay for my prescription so now I’m just stuck with how i look ig, which I also got bullied for. I don’t really feel like i fit in anywhere, I’m pretty much always alone, which as a result I’m usually at home with nothing to do, no one to really talk to, nothing new or exciting in my life there’s been ups and downs in my life but the fact that always remains is that i always end up back at square one, left behind.
Growing up i just constantly felt like an imposter, I now have really bad social anxiety and maybe even agoraphobia, i hate going outside, i hate being alone anywhere, i hate my life.
Like is it really that hard being around me? Am i that flawed and unlovable? and it makes me wonder was i born broken? or did i just get damaged along the way… but at this point I don’t think there’s much hope for me… All this to say, I deeply resent everyone and everything around me including myself.
I’ve tried seeking out therapy in the past and nothing really helped since where I’m from my only option was online.
I just feel like if people were really as lonely as they say they are then they’d be willing to put in the effort to get to know people cause everyone I’ve ever talked to online makes it seem like I’m forcing them to talk to me.
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2025.02.02 03:00 Gloomy_CookieCutter I think my feral cat is depressed..?
Hey, I used to post all my updates on the straycat subreddit but I figured it’ll be more beneficial to post here.
We have catch and captured my 3 y/o feral cat in August and have held him in our basement since. We have had lots of issues with him escaping to dangerous parts of the room but other than that we have made, small, but progress. It is important to mention that I have two other cats, and that Z, my feral cat, is FIV+. Although I know that the two kinds can live together peacefully together, we haven’t risked much.
We got Z in a pretty bad shape, and got him neutered and gave him some broad spectrum treatment for his condition. He has a few missing teeth and grade 3 gingivitis. On top of that a bone deformity in his tail.
I visit him every single day, and try to spend as much time as I can. Before it was me and my mother trying to help, but I’ll be honest, lately it’s just been me. Recently I began to pet him for the first time, and although I don’t think he understands it, he’s not aggressive. He doesn’t heavily damage anything either.
As I’m writing this, it is the first time we brought both of my cats into the basement and let them all roam. However Z just sits in his cat tree, doesn’t seem very interested. My two cats have hissed a bit but never tried to attack, making sure to sniff everything.
My parents and I have discussed in the beginning that if nothing works we will release him back into the wild in the summer. However I’m not sure I can personally do that, selfish, I know, but I love this cat and he is very dear to me. I really want to help him even though I am aware that this is most likely very difficult for him and unnatural. My parents claim that at this point we are hurting him and that he will never be able to adapt. But I cannot stop but have the feeling that maybe there is a chance he can change? Like I mentioned, he lets me pet him and we often sit on the stairs together and I throw him treats closer and closer until we sit just a stair or two away from each other. He also greets me sometimes when I bring him food by meowing.
But I understand that perhaps maybe I am just being delusional and rather immature. How long should this take in general? We want to bring him upstairs to live with all of us but we want to make sure we’re doing everything right.. or maybe we should just wait until it’s warm and let him out? We would obviously still feed him.
I am willing to hear all advice and criticism, I am am genuinely looking to help him and want the very best for him. If you have any questions feel free to ask!!
Thank you so so much for reading.
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2025.02.02 03:00 Competitive_Toe2860 Help for people struggling with fatigue
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There were Starbucks in certain cities that limited the cup size to grande, just saying.
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2025.02.02 03:00 gummyyoshis PLEASEEE COMMUNICATE
i am seeing SO many posts on this subs of people posting feelings they’re having or issues they having and almost all of them are things that should be discussed with your partners.
communication is SO important, especially in a LDR. your partner is suppose to be THE person you talk to about your feelings, if they can’t do this for you or you feel nervous about talking to them then you need to think deeper on why that is
if you’re posting because you spoke with your partner and things didn’t go well then this does not apply to you, this is more for situations where no communication has taken place
obviously there are some scenarios where outside input can be helpful but reddit should not be the first place you go to when you are feeling negatively about something in your relationship, none of us know your partner or your relationship the same way that you do and it’s important to not air out all your dirty laundry to strangers when you and your partner can talk it out together
at the very least, if you’re going to post asking for advice then please plan on discussing with your partner eventually rather than keeping everything to yourself and relying entirely on the input of strangers on the internet
that’s all
best of luck to everyone, i miss my bf so much.
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2025.02.02 03:00 Hot-Department-8902 Struggling with hard relapse. Any advice on how to quit?
For context I had been clean for almost 3 years. Once and a while I would look at porn and could go weeks without it. I started to become a little more social, and got out of the house more. Recently, I don't know how but I relapsed HARD. Being social and going out is starting to not become second nature to me anymore. I feel tired and depressed all the time due to stressful life issues. Falling back on this has made managing my stress worse and don't know what to do to stop. I'm going to therapy for more intense treatment to deal with my personal problems. But as far as this... It feels like a dog chasing it's own tail. Tried going on NoFap with a similar post a few years ago before I quit, but... Let's just say they were a bit "incellish". Any non radical advice or non bat shit crazy responses you have for me?
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