Am I ace or just traumatized?
2024.11.27 08:24 artnerd5162 Am I ace or just traumatized?
I am kind of drunk so if I don't make the most amount of sense, I apologize, but I've been kind of thinking lately and I'm starting to wonder if I'm asexual or if my feelings are just trauma
So, my ex was with me for about 2 years and I tried moving to another country for him. Sounds wild, but that's how deep into the relationship I was if you needed a kind of gauge. Full on, ready for life to be just us vibin, and things fell through big time.
He didn't SA me or anything, I wanna clarify that and keep him out of anyone's shit-list, he just neglected me, refused to give me any affection and repeatedly turned me away in favor of his hand. If you're not in the mood, you're not in the mood, but after weeks of not wanting to touch me, leaning away from kisses and refusing to hold me, I felt disgusting and like I didn't deserve to be loved on or given attention. He also had never complimented me or initiated affection. The first time I was called "beautiful" after he left me, I started crying because I hadn't been called that in so long, I genuinely didn't think I deserved it.
After a month, he left me and I didn't get mad at him for it or anything, but something was off. I couldn't handle physical touch, hugs were claustrophobic and sex, while in VRchat only, made me shake like a leaf and I couldn't enjoy it.
I don't see the appeal to sex anymore, masturbation is just self care to get it out of my system for a couple weeks or so and I don't look at anyone with sex in mind anymore. I used to be able to come up with sex jokes and provocative pick-up lines, but now I get uncomfortable when actually confronted with the reality of sex. Everything's all fun and games until someone actually starts undressing, record scratch, "ayo why everything go quiet?" level of reality-smack when sex is seriously brought up.
When asked by my partners (I'm poly) about sex or favorite positions, I don't have much of an answer because I just... Don't care about it and don't want it..? I mean, I'll vibe to a good ol' Brandon Rogers video or Helluva Boss episode any day, so sex jokes aren't an issue, they get a good chuckle out of me sometimes, but actual sex? Idk, just no thanks?
I was also often sexually harassed and assaulted (not actually r****, just touched on the butt, chest and got groomed) as a child, so maybe that plays a factor? Sex hasn't really been... Fun... to me I guess?
Am I ace or do I just need therapy? (I need a lot of therapy the ace question is just because I don't want to hurt any genuinely ace homies with incorrectly assessed representation)
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- {"id": 54, "amount": 180.00, "type": "out", "balance": 6224.81, "date": "2023-07-30"}, - {"id": 55, "amount": 6.80, "type": "out", "balance": 5745.72, "date": "2023-05-27"}, - {"id": 56, "amount": 3.90, "type": "out", "balance": 2556.99, "date": "2023-05-30"} - // ... (additional transactions would continue here)”
Why?
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Number of INPUT tokens: 24978. MAX: ? Number of OUTPUT tokens: 2937. MAX: 32,768 Number of TOTAL TOKENS used: 27915. MAX: 128,000 Finally, this is the prompt I'm using: ``` prompt = f""" Instructions: - You will receive a markdown document extracted from a bank account statement PDF. - Analyze each transaction to determine the amount of money that was deposited or withdrawn. - Provide a JSON formatted list of all transactions as shown in the example below: {{ "transactions_list": [ {{"id": 1, "amount": 1806.15, "type": "in", "balance": 2151.25, "date": "2021-07-16"}}, {{"id": 2, "amount": 415.18, "type": "out", "balance": 1736.07, "date": "2021-07-17"}} ] }}
Markdown of bank account statement:###\n {OCR_markdown}### """ ```
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