I can't seem to live with myself
2024.11.27 18:48 Fuzzy-Temperature-29 I can't seem to live with myself
So it's basically what the title says. Trough my short (15 years of) life, I have always had some problems. Sure, I have my happy moments, but there was always something. Even back in kindergarden.
In middle school, I became friends with this guy, who seemed nice, but that relationship turned toxic, and I was both suffering and becoming an asshole just like he was. I hated myself for that. Fast forward to 7th grade, I finally stopped being friends with him (still in same class) and I fell into a deep seeded depression. No close friends at all. I hated being near him all the time, which made school a living hell. It took me around 1.5-2 year of suicidal thoughts (and all that in a package) to get better, which I credit God for.
However, it haven't even been a year and I hate myself. My grades are declining, I see no future for me. I just always find something to hate about myself, to be negative about. I'm lazy, suck at comforting, big headed, way too logic based, suck at feelings, a horrible family member, attention seeking, useless in general.
It's really just that I always find something to hate and I keep self sabotaging. I really tried to improve, but I found new things to drawl on. Life just became a struggle for me, and I don't see that changing in the future at all. I tried SH, unsure why, maybe hoping to feel more, or feel less, maybe for attention (although I never actually shown it to anyone) but it really didn't help. Maybe it was that I tried burning myself, not something more intense like cutting. I don't know, I really am just trying to be happy, but at this point it would be nicer to die. I would be more useful too. Young people are great organ donors.
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