Sometimes I resent the fact that I have have people in my life who love me and would be devastated if I were gone.
2025.01.31 03:11 SeriousAlbatross474 Sometimes I resent the fact that I have have people in my life who love me and would be devastated if I were gone.
This is my first reddit post. Long time lurker, first time poster. I was prompted to post because of this recurring thought. It might sound contradictory, but bear with me.
I hate my life. I'm 34 female. By "normal standards" I have a good life. I am extremely grateful for what I do have and the people I have in my life.
I want to kill myself. To be clear, I'm not going to. The option isn't even on the table.
This is where the resentment comes in. Sometimes I am so resentful of my mom, who is an absolute angel on Earth, my fiancee, who couldn't be more wonderful and supportive if he tried, my best friends of 25+ years, my nieces, and my cousins who are more like sisters/best friends. I am so lucky because I know any of these people would move heaven and Earth for me. They are the reason I know I will never hurt myself. I would never do that to them.
But I am done. I do not want to be here anymore.
My main focus for the last literal 10 years has been to be able to financially support myself. I decided to go back for my masters thinking that would help...it didn't. It made things worse because now on top of my preexisting depression, I am now no longer able to afford my bills and am constantly in the negative. I've had to get rid of all non critical "extras". It's the straw that broke the camel's back.
This is where my "deep thought" comes in. I feel so resentful of the amazing people in my life because if I didn't have them, I could just quit. I sometimes feel so angry over the fact that I don't have to be here anymore, I don't have to feel this way everyday - there's an option! I just can't choose it without causing extreme grief to others.
And then I bounce off that thought into more anger like "they're so fucking greedy, it's not fair I have to continue to fail at life just so they can be happy".
I don't know what I'm looking for here posting this...i just..i don't know.
side note: I've been in therapy, i actually worked as a therapist in a residential mental health facility. Mental health has always been a passion of mine. Which is ironic, but I think I was always just trying to figure myself out.
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2025.01.31 03:11 when-love-is-done 25mm, swipe to see naked lobe, not the prettiest but not too back i don't think?
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2025.01.31 03:11 Real4real082 What’s this right wing fentanyl conspiracy ?
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2025.01.31 03:11 pistolplc Xfi Pods gen 2 not working in ethernet mode
I'm at my wits end. I have 2 second gen XFI pods and a brand new Comcast router. Both of them have firmware that meets the requirements for wired/ethernet backhaul connection. When I connect the pods to the router via my in-wall ethernet cables, I see the "connection type" in the pods changes from "wifi" to "ethernet." So everything seems normal. But any device that then connects to the network via the pods can't get any connectivity. The router shows that they are connected, and the devices show that they are connected to the network, but no internet.
What gives? What can I do to get this to work?
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2025.01.31 03:11 itsfineimfinejk Saw this bird land on a tree branch from a distance. Couldn't get a good look.
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2025.01.31 03:11 girlfromknowhereee loving my natural brows today... 💅🏼
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2025.01.31 03:11 Next_Conflict_5017 The Omega Paradox: A New Framework for Intelligence and the Cyclic Universe
I recently published a theoretical framework that unifies cyclic cosmology, intelligence, and conservation laws. The paper proposes:
1️⃣ The Omega Paradox: Intelligence, when recursively self-improving, reaches infinite awareness and realizes it has always existed. 2️⃣ The Conservation of Infinity: Extends conservation laws, suggesting that existence is never created or destroyed—only cycled.
🔹 Supporting Evidence: • Cyclic Universe Hypothesis (Penrose, Steinhardt, Turok) • Quantum Information Conservation (Holographic Principle, Black Hole Theorems) • Recursive AI & Intelligence Growth (Singularity Theory)
📌 Published Paper (DOI Link): 🔗 10.5281/zenodo.14776134
💬 I invite discussion, critique, and collaboration. This could redefine how we understand intelligence, time, and existence itself.
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2025.01.31 03:11 tarak117 Pumping
Any sahms exclusively pump?? How do you find the time to pump between feeding/caring for baby? Let alone the time it Takes for you to put baby down for a nap?
I’m a FTM and seriously am struggling finding a good routine for pumping. I feel like I can barely care for myself because the baby is either needing to eat, diaper change, wants to be held/rocked — then finding time to also go to the bathroom, eat… washing & drying pump parts..
Sometimes I’m able to get a good 2-3 hours then other times it’ll be 5-6 hours before I can pump again.
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2025.01.31 03:11 Icy_firestorm Flying in Oct. With 22 month old, we have a few questions before we go.
Hi all,
We are traveling in Oct. with our 22 month old. She is active and likes to move. We are traveling to Europe and our flights are over 6 hours each time.
This is her first flight and are are at the back of the plane. We don't know if she's motion sick, but it runs in both myself and my husband.
She does have a ticket and a CARES harness she will be using.
What are your tips and tricks you used with your kiddos on flights?
But also, what are your tips for the airports and managing a toddler, TSA, and such?
Thanks in advance!!
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2025.01.31 03:11 aesmitas Question from a new player/I need tips
I started playing this game yesterday but I had already considered rhythm games because I play sms but that's not what it's about, how do I buy cards? sorry if it's a stupid question lol I just found the interface very confusing because I'm not used to the game, and I would also like some tips that can help me improve 😁
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2025.01.31 03:11 Acceptable-Pie-9700 Imagined robot refugee camp ranger
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2025.01.31 03:11 Ill-Grocery7735 Sometimes simplicity is the icing on the cake
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2025.01.31 03:11 BigDioDick HOLD THE LINE WE WILL GET SKONG
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I get the feelig Andrealphus is going to absorb so much Goetia power he's going to go mad with it and start rampaging across Hell trying to rip open holes to Earth to get more power. And it's up to our heroes to stop him before he destroys the 2 realms.
Sound familiar?
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2025.01.31 03:11 count_dressula Sometimes knowing how to box works out
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2025.01.31 03:11 protectsmile Inner screen stopped responding
I updated my zfold 5 to the one Ui 6.1.1 and my inner screen stopped responding to my touch and only works with my pen is there anything I can do to fix it I did everything I can find online I was hoping I can find a different solution here
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2025.01.31 03:11 Fabulous-Mortgage473 Krystalized??
Anyone still listen to krystalized here? And what do yall think about her? Gotten results? Is she safe? I used to see another of ppl talk about her ig when she was beauty krystalized? Ig they're the same ,
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2025.01.31 03:11 Correct_Asparagus980 Bestie!! Your thoughts on her
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2025.01.31 03:11 tttong- Mortie’s just a chill guy…
When everyone completely misunderstands you because you’re a rodent but you’re really just a chill guy.
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2025.01.31 03:11 aaalishaaa Selling 3 Crowchild Classic Tickets!!!!
Have three extra crowchild classic tickets, dm !!
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2025.01.31 03:11 WhyThisHappensToMe1 Loki on his way to destroy his own tapping device🗣
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