How to cope with jealousy
2025.01.22 09:04 iwantsalt How to cope with jealousy
I never have thought of myself as jealous. Im not in a traditional sense. I get this feeling though, maybe its not jealousy but more like a deep confusion.
I come from an extremely dysfunctional family. Alcoholism, substance abuse, emotional abuse, emotional immaturity, poverty trauma etc. My mother a cold bitter women, a narcassist. due to her childhood maybe.
I dont know if thats an excuse. People who have been to hell and back can be loving and self aware.
The extent of her behaviour has been beyond damaging to me. I never had a father. He left when I was young. I feel like the impact of my upbringing makes it so hard to connect with people who i deem luckier then me in those departments. I catch myself feeling bitter and sad the second a freind, colleague or ex/partner talk about their loving parent/family and how they love their parents and visa versa. When my mother cant even acknowledge me when i come home, or how she treats me like ive done something wrong when i havent. I feel pain throughout my whole body. I had a close freind whos family i adored, i felt more at home at her house then my own. Then to come home to what wasnt there, brings me to tears all the time. My mum has only ever loved who ever she is dating, alot more then me my whole life. I feel that this experience has left a gapping hole inside me that continually stunts my life. I become very depressive sometimes, suicidal and have no will to live. Ive been diagnosed with stuff, but in my opinion if i had a normal childhood and nurturing relationships. Id be "normal". I feel so jealous all the time of people who get the chance to experience what its like to be loved. i hate it. I feel like its the darkest part of my psyche and a truly demonic side to me. I feel personally victimised by the universe and cant see how this serves me other than becoming paralyzingly self-aware with an intense interest in psych/spirituality. I cant connect with people im jealous of because i get to distracted by the avalanche of despair that comes with it.
There just is nothing like a good family and people take it for granted. It feels like a distant fantasy to picture being loved for simply existing.
If your going to tell me to accept it, dont bother because i know. Ive done alot of 'work" and have become increasingly kinder to myself. I really have tryed to detach from my mother but it feels like amputating a limb. I have gone days feeling genuinely okay with life and myself but then this demonic feeling just sneaks up on me and it consumes me and im ashamed of it.
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