I feel unworthy of love
2025.01.24 19:50 ThrowRAaaahelpme I feel unworthy of love
It's been almost a year since I broke up with my emotionally abusive ex, and i have spent so much of that time replaying everything that happened in my head. It left me feeling a lot more anxious and insecure, and I don't know how to make it stop.
The entire time I was with them, especially towards the end, was hell. They constantly guilt tripped me, berated me and made me feel like I could never do enough to make them trust me. I was accused of cheating when I never did. They would say that I'm incapable and call me a coward when I was just anxious and afraid of their attitude towards me. They spiralled pretty often. It would get worse if I couldn't say the right things to get them to calm down. Sometimes I would ask for a break because I wouldn't have the mental space to handle their rants, but they would keep going, telling me that I got to rest while they were suffering. They would pull this even when I was sick. I would be having a fever and barely be able to keep up with them, and they called me dismissive for asking for rest.
O'm doing fine for most of the part now, but sometimes I worry that what my ex said about me is true, that I really didn't do enough for them, and that they did too much for me. I know that's not the case because I poured my heart out, I did everything that I could to be with them through the good and the bad. I stayed despite being hurt by them multiple times. I tried so hard to keep us together that I lost myself in the process. I remember telling myself after our big argument that if I was going to break up with them, I might as well do my best, so I can at least say that I tried, and yet, it still wasn't enough for them.
My break up ended with more guilt trips. They said that I took advantage of them and that all I ever do is run away from our problems, even though I'm pretty sure I was the only one taking action to fix them. They said I was leaving them all alone now, and no one would be there for them. I feel terrible about it, yet I know this was the right choice for me.
I know that I did what I could, but I can't shake the feeling that I'm not enough now. It struck a chord in me I guess. A part of me worries that my friends secretly hate me and think that I'm useless, just like my ex does. I worry that strangers and acquaintances don't want to be around me. Maybe I really am not enough to be cared for. I feel like I'm a terrible person and I don't deserve to be loved. I'm always around my friends, but I feel like I'm putting up a wall between us and I don't know how to let that down anymore? I used to be open and vulnerable. I feel lonely now, but I don't want to be. Sometimes I want to just disappear so I don't have to interact with people.
I don't know what to do, I don't want to feel this way. I know my friends and family that care about me. I just have to talk to them, but I'm also scared to reach out. I don't know how to let myself rely on someone again without fearing that I'm a burden, or that they're keeping score, and some day they'll tell me the same things my ex told me.
If there's any advice on how to stop myself from getting stuck with this I would greately appreciate it. I know a lot of my thoughts are just deep seated insecurities. I just don't know how to process this and feel okay with myself again.
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2025.01.24 19:50 BanjoWrench Why couldn't we stop COVID-19 before it got out of control?
Before COVID-19 there had been several viruses that we were warned could become devastating global pandemics, but they didn't really amount to much. Could COVID-19 have been contained if we had acted earlier?
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2025.01.24 19:50 Blurple694201 He might be onto something, actually
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2025.01.24 19:50 NegotiationSignal241 Career ideas for college freshman with current major in health?
Hi all, not sure if this is the right sub as I am new to reddit but I am hoping you can help! If not, just let me know where this post should be!
I am a freshman in college currently majoring in Allied Health Sciences, which is basically a blanket major for pretty much all health-related careers. However, I am having trouble with chemistry, which I know is essential to later classes I will take and med school/post-grad education, etc. Some of that could be chalked up to first semester, figuring out how to study type stuff but I also just don't think its 100% my thing.
I also am not entirely sure what I want to do - or if I even want to work in the medical field. This is causing me a lot of stress as I try to figure it out.
I am currently taking a Human Development and Family Studies course and am loving it. We are talking about prenatal and infant development right now and I find this very interesting. I also am really drawn to jobs where I can help people, love working with kids, and like to problem solve/am very analytical. I want a job where it's not the same old stuff every day, and I have a chance to think creatively. I also enjoy art and reading, exercise, etc and am on the rowing team at my university.
People have often told me that I would be a good lawyer, writer, or teacher, but the only one of those that remotely stands out to me is lawyer.
Anyone have any ideas on careers? Or, ideas on ways to figure out which of these I would enjoy most? Any and all advice is appreciated, thanks!
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2025.01.24 19:50 Vib_ration The Holy Spirit as a Comforter
This post will focus on explaining, how the term Rapture describes an another form of expression of your Vital energy from your Spirit (soul/astral body/etheric body/energetic body/emotional body/true self) to help spread this information and help everyone learn about the different spiritual/biological discoveries, usages and benefits that were documented on the activation of this type of energy.
This community presents to you an opportunity to empower yourself with your control of your Rapture by gaining the ability to really tap into all the reported, documented and written spiritual/biological usages that are said to be achievable with your conscious cultivation of it.
What does Rapture means/Represents: • Rapture, represents an expression or manifestation of ecstasy, passion or a state or experience of being carried away by overwhelming emotions.
• This is the exact emotional state that is activated when one experiences chills/goosebumps from an positive external or internal stimuli like listening to a favorite song and etc.
• It's not a coïncidence that the emotion of Rapture is basically the emotion of Ecstasy which is: an overwhelming feeling of great happiness or joyful excitement. Since it is an emotion, it can also be looked at as energy because emotions are energy in motion.
• That same energy can be and is activated/drawn from your body when you get chills/goosebumps from an positive external or internal stimuli.
• That energy activates goosebumps/chills not the other way around. You can learn how to separate that extremely pleasant energy from the physical reaction of goosebumps and eventually learn how to activate only that Euphoric energy part whenever you please, feel it wherever or everywhere on yourself and for the duration you choose.
• Your emotion of Rapture is equivalent to what can be considered your "Spiritual Energy" because your spirit (soul/astral body/etheric body/ energetic body/emotional body/true self) is made of that same energy in motion that activates when you experience it.
• In its neutral state, you unconsciously draw that energy with your breath, the foods/liquids you consume and especially the thoughts you think, the actions you do and the visual content that you watch either emits or draws in to amplify your base of this BioElectric Energy.
Here's a simple way that's explains how you can become aware of how to activate/control your Rapture: it is that extremely comfortable Euphoric wave that can most easily be recognized as present while you experience goosebumps/chills from a positive external or internal situations/ stimuli like listening to a song you really like, thinking about a lover, watching a moving movie scene, striving, feeling thankful, praising God, praying, etc.
• That Euphoric wave is the animating energy behind life itself, Other cultures that have experienced in other ways with this energy found their own usages for it and then documented their results as they coined different terms for it.
• That energy activates goosebumps/chills not the other way around. You can learn how to separate that extremely pleasant energy from the physical reaction of goosebumps and eventually learn how to activate only that Euphoric energy part whenever you please, feel it wherever or everywhere on yourself and for the duration you choose.
• Other than Rapture , this has also been experienced and documented as the Vibrational State before an Astral Projection, the Runner's High, Chills from positive events/stimuli, as Qi in Taoism / Martial Arts, as Prana in Hindu philosophy, during an ASMR session, Bioelectricity, Life force, Euphoria, Ecstasy, Orgone, Tension, Aura, Mana, Vayus, Nen, Intent, Tummo, Odic force, Pitī, Frisson, Ruah, Spiritual Energy, Secret Fire, The Tingles, on-demand quickening, Voluntary Piloerection, Aether, Spiritual Chills and many more to be discovered hopefully with your help.
• It was discovered that this energy can be used in many beneficial ways.
• Some which are more biological like Unblocking your lymphatic system/Meridians, Feel euphoric/ecstatic on your whole body, Guide your Spiritual chills anywhere in your body, Control your temperature, Give yourself goosebumps, Dilate your pupils, Regulate your heartbeat, Counteract stress/anxiety in your body with this energy, Internally Heal yourself access your Hypothalamus on demand,
• and I discovered other usages which are more spiritual like Accurately use your Psychic senses (clairvoyance, clairaudience, spirit projection, higher-self guidance, vision from your third eye)with this energy, Managing your Auric field, Manifestation, Energy absorption from any source and even more to come.
• If you're interested in learning how to use this subtle energy activation for these ways, here are three written tutorials going more in-depth and explicitly revealing how you can do just that.
• P.S. Everyone feels its activation at certain points in their life, some brush it off while others notice that there is something much deeper going on. Those are exactly the people you can find on the subreddit community spiritualchills where they share experiences, knowledge, tips on it and if you are wanting to develop discipline, purpose, self-worth, or strength, start your journey today at EnergyLibrary.
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2025.01.24 19:50 More-Chance3552 Hideout crash
Im stuck at the part of the story where I have to buy a hideout, but whenever i go to the quick travel options and click on hideout I got an error then it goes away, then the sound keeps glitching while i see the loading screen and then the game just crashes. Is there a way I can solve this?
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2025.01.24 19:50 freedlurker another super attractive Protagonist for the next Persona game, or Nah?
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2025.01.24 19:50 Lazy-Macaroon8252 Just a question
Is anyone concerned w the drop off of players? I know WoW has had its fair share of player drop off with expansions that weren’t received well, but here they are still top of the player population count. I’ve seen ffxiv drop down slightly more than usual which could just be the lack of content right now, but do you think SE will actually take action on this? Or does it even matter and do you think ffxiv will always be top mmo out just because the market for mmo is so difficult nowadays anyway, people will stick with what they know
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2025.01.24 19:50 Dangerous_Factor_129 BONZINHO - Season Three
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