I regret that I can’t talk to my mom and tell her that I love her one more time
2025.01.31 01:31 Low_Information_7412 I regret that I can’t talk to my mom and tell her that I love her one more time
I was removed from my mom’s custody a few weeks after I was born due to a number of mental health issues she had before the pregnancy, and because of how they began to worsen when she went off her medication to have me. I still don’t know the specifics, but from what I understand, my mom called my uncle in the middle of a mental health crisis, asking him to look after me, and then she attempted to end her life.
She survived, but given her mental health issues and her suicidal ideation, my grandparents arranged for her to be put into a long term care facility so that she could get the kind of 24/7 help she needed.
My uncle and his wife adopted me, and they would take me to see my mom as often as I wanted (within visiting hours of course). There was a piano in the recreation room that the patients were allowed to use, so every time I went to see her we’d go sit at the piano and she’d teach me how to play a new song. She used to take lessons when she was younger. My uncle has some recordings of her recitals and stuff, so sometimes she and I would watch those together too and she’d teach me the song from them.
When things started getting worse, and her lucid moments weren’t really often or long lasting, I still got to see her, but I started to hate it. I loved my mom. I love her. No matter what the circumstances of our lives were, I know that I was adored, and I know it was hard for her to lose me the way she did. It was just hard to watch her forget things. They say that memory loss is something that can happen with schizophrenia, and given the brain damage she sustained during her suicide attempt, I think it just worsened it.
Sometimes she wouldn’t know who I was. She was always nice to me, and she was still happy to show me how to play the piano, but she didn’t know that I was me. The less often she could remember things, the less I asked to see her. I know it was a shitty thing to do, I guess I just didn’t know how else to deal with what was going on. My mom had never been well but it wasn’t like that before.
One of the last times I went to see her, we were sitting in her room looking at some of the pictures she kept, and all of a sudden she told me that she thought she remembered having a daughter but she couldn’t remember if she was a good mom. I started crying, and when she asked me why I said that my mom was sick and sometimes she couldn’t remember me either, so thinking about how she was going to forget me one day made me sad. She told me that she couldn’t remember her daughter, but she knew that she loved her, so even if my mom started to forget me, she’d never forget what it felt like to love me. After she died, that conversation was all I could ever think about.
I just hope that her promise worked in reverse too. I hope that even as she started to forget things, she never forgot what it felt like to have a daughter that loved her. I wish I could tell her that one more time.
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2025.01.31 01:31 AE_R-8_28 Dear Canadians:
In America we sometimes say "I need to catch some Z's"
Do Canadians say "catch some zed's?"
Thank you in advance!
God bless, protect, and guide yall, love yall! ♡
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2025.01.31 01:31 BigCustard482 Trackmania bug
I just started playing trackmania on here last night but today I just booted it up and it's only showing the keyboard enter input and I can't start the game
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2025.01.31 01:31 ellis_adams Finrot help!
This is Man. He’s a Delta betta that I rescued from my school. I’ve had him at home since November and he’s been showing signs of finrot for about a month. I’ve done two doses of KanaPlex this week. I’ve been monitoring all of his levels and everything is good other than a slightly high pH for a few days a couple of weeks ago. He is in a 3 gallon tank with love plants (because he was originally in a cup for months) but I am in the process of buying materials for and cycling a 5 gallon tank.
Before i tried the kanaplex i did a cycle of the API fin and body cure on him a few weeks ago. What should I do and how do i know if he’s getting better? I really wanna help him!!
btw, the film at the top of the water is the kanaplex i just added
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2025.01.31 01:31 FantasyPL_bot Player Price Changes (January 31, 2025)
Risers (1)
| Name | Team | Position | Ownership | Price | ∆ | Form |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| Mbeumo | Brentford | Midfielder | 33.9% | £7.9 | +£0.1 | 7.4 |
Fallers (4)
| Name | Team | Position | Ownership | Price | ∆ | Form |
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| B.Fernandes | Man Utd | Midfielder | 9.5% | £8.3 | -£0.1 | 5.5 |
| Eriksen | Man Utd | Midfielder | 0.2% | £5.2 | -£0.1 | 1.0 |
| C.Miguel | Nott'm Forest | Goalkeeper | 0.2% | £4.1 | -£0.1 | 0.0 |
| Sugawara | Southampton | Defender | 0.2% | £4.2 | -£0.1 | 0.2 |
∆, = price change this gameweek. Form = average points last 5 gameweeks.
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Hello, does anyone know if the Thermomix, including its blade, can be checked in with Jetstar?
Thanks in advance!
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2025.01.31 01:31 Mindless_Bedroom607 I feel like they are making avignon-lyon
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2025.01.31 01:31 M1mgaa Connecting account?
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2025.01.31 01:31 mes_amis 40 [M4F] Do you enjoy Soviet-style pastries, strong tea, and a third bullet point to balance out this Reddit post title?
A few weeks ago, I met a ridiculously good-looking girl in the heart of a formerly Soviet republic, who at the end of the 3rd date sheepishly admitted that she has a secret kid who lives with the dad.
She explained she’s childfree just like me, because she also doesn’t want kids… anymore.
As I was panting and sweating during my full-speed sprint in the opposite direction, I asked myself if there is a better way to meet the actually-childfree girl of my dreams.
And here you are: reading this and getting excited by the prospect of dating a middle-aged Redditor in Minsk, who will doubtless ply you with Soviet pastries, hot tea, and deep stories that illuminate the human condition, most of which he gleaned from Mentos commercials in the mid 90s.
You’re in luck. You’re not merely getting a childfree man of average physical dimensions and unimpressive IQ, you’re also getting an emotionally stable, non-smoking, non-drinking monogamous travel partner.
Because let’s face it: not everybody is blessed to be living in Belarus, so I’ll meet you somewhere in between.
Send me a message or chat if you’re either nearby or geographically mobile.
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2025.01.31 01:31 DookieMays how much can i afford on a $70k salary with zero debt and 10k down in a MCOL area
First time single home owner. Was thinking $250k absolute maximum but trying to stay around $230k. Will get a roommate but i want to be able to handle costs myself if needed so not factoring that in. My car is paid off as well.
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Anyone have recommendations for a good primary care Dr in Novant? Mine is no longer working in the area.
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2025.01.31 01:31 WilsonAndJackie Degree Strength and Portability?
Hey y'all!
Currently in the law school admissions process and got great money at Vanderbilt. Feel like there's a lot of fear mongering regarding attending a T20 over a T14 if you're trying to land big law post-grad. Ideally I'd like to work in NYC or Chicago upon graduation - would Vandy give me a decent shot at these goals? Considered asking this question over in lawschooladmissions, but kind of felt like the blind leading the blind.
Thanks!
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