35 Jahre voller Schicksalsschläge – wie weiter?
2024.11.27 15:30 NigrumMortis 35 Jahre voller Schicksalsschläge – wie weiter?
Hallo zusammen,
ich möchte hier mal meine Geschichte teilen und um Rat fragen, weil ich das Gefühl habe, festzustecken. Mein Leben war bisher alles andere als einfach, und ich weiß nicht, ob es normal ist, in meinem Alter schon so viel erlebt zu haben. Ich bin 35, aber es fühlt sich an, als hätte ich ein ganzes Leben an Erfahrungen hinter mir – viele davon schmerzhaft.
2011 ist meine Tochter in meinen Armen gestorben. Es war der schlimmste Moment meines Lebens und hat mich lange verfolgt. 2014 wurde bei mir Darmkrebs diagnostiziert, der 2015 operativ entfernt wurde. Danach dachte ich, ich hätte das Schlimmste hinter mir, aber es ging weiter. Das Hochwasser im Ahrtal 2021 hat den Ort, in dem ich aufgewachsen bin und bis 2011 gelebt habe, komplett verwüstet. Ich war damals vor Ort, um zu helfen, und traf viele alte Bekannte wieder – leider waren viele von ihnen nicht mehr am Leben, und wir konnten nur noch die Leichen bergen.
Ich wurde in meinem Leben fünfmal angefahren, hatte als Kleinkind eine schwere Salmonelleninfektion, die ich mit viel Glück überlebt habe, wurde als ich 14 war mit einer Axt im Rücken ins Krankenhaus gebracht, habe mir mit 6 einen Finger abgeschnitten und mit 12 ein Knie zertrümmert (ausnahmslos Unfälle).
Jahrelang war ich von innerer Trauer kontrolliert, dachte das Leben ist mir gegenüber unfair - dann wurden daraus Hass und Wut. Es fühlte sich an, als würde mich diese Energie von innen auffressen. 2015 habe ich meine Partnerin kennengelernt, und als wir 2017 zusammengezogen sind, wurde vieles besser. Für ein paar Jahre schien es, als hätte ich wieder etwas Kontrolle über mein Leben gewonnen. Doch seit ein paar Monaten spüre ich, wie all das Alte wieder hochkommt – das Brennen, die Wut, die Energie, die ich nicht kanalisieren kann.
Ich will diese Energie nicht mehr gegen mich selbst richten, sondern sie irgendwie nutzen. Ich hatte überlegt, es mit Kampfsport zu versuchen, um sie zu kanalisieren, aber ich habe große Hemmungen, überhaupt den ersten Schritt zu machen. Zudem habe ich Angst, im „Eifer des Gefechts“ die Kontrolle zu verlieren und jemanden zu verletzen.
Glaubt ihr, dass ich für mein Alter überdurchschnittlich viel erlebt habe? Und habt ihr vielleicht Tipps, wie ich besser mit diesen Emotionen umgehen oder erste Schritte in die richtige Richtung machen kann? Ich bin offen für alle Ratschläge und wäre euch wirklich dankbar für eure Perspektiven.Was denkt ihr – ist das, was ich erlebt habe, außergewöhnlich für mein Alter?
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2024.11.27 15:30 solangesdurag Con Ed bill usage and bill is high
 | Hi. I am trying to understand why my usage and bill is so high. I just moved into a one bedroom duplex a little while ago. They don’t provide the square footage but i’m assuming it’s 1,000> sqft based on my calculations. Central AC and heating. I’ve only used it once during this billing cycle and for about 2 hours. I’m responsible for the hot water. I’m confused about the kWh usage. This month, it was 678. This seems high to me because compared to my last apartment, I used about 500 this time last year. Is this normal for one person? It seems high considering I don’t use the ac or heating. I work from home, but I’m very conscious about conserving energy. I also turned off my breaker for about an hour a few weeks ago. When I checked the ConEd real time usage, I saw things were still moving on the chart. My super claims that it’s just my apartment assigned to meter, but I disagree. Any help would be appreciated! submitted by solangesdurag to NYCapartments [link] [comments] |
2024.11.27 15:30 Luxydutch Luxydutch
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2024.11.27 15:30 jennyferp I messed up/ skipped my day streak 😢
 | Today was going to be ( it is) my 50th day and I was so excited to get my celebration but then I went on and edited my waking hours and it went to day 51 - it skipped my day today entirely and added a day! I’m so sad :( I really wanted to see the 50 day celebration page 😭😭😭😭😭 submitted by jennyferp to finch [link] [comments] |
2024.11.27 15:30 Prestigious_Tutor475 ISO Rimowa large trunk or large luggage! Please let me know if you’re rehoming!
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2024.11.27 15:30 GSB1012 [Question] Harak without Pesto in DR
I was really hoping to pull for him (specially since because of mistakes i already have a copy of him), but since i haven't built Pesto i am wondering if there are other ways to make him work. My only hypo cele so far are reiner m+ and talene s+.
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2024.11.27 15:30 Thoraxe474 Returning for last day - how do I use the fireworks?
Haven't played in ages. How do I use the fireworks they gave?
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2024.11.27 15:30 sheepfiend Farm Jamz XII-XIII Released
The Sheep Fiends latest release includes material recorded at Farm Jamz 12 and 13.
https://sheepfiends.bandcamp.com
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2024.11.27 15:30 IllPitch6112 PH ARENA / STADIUM ACCOMODATION RECOS
Hi, looking for accommodation near the p h stadium or arena na walking distance lang sana and budget friendly. I already messaged yung sa bunk beds, pero no reply pa sila🥹
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2024.11.27 15:30 bloopie1192 Never met ranni?!
Ok. So. First playthrough. Never met ranni. Bought my spirit bell from the creep twins. Didn't get the blaidd quest. Unlocked the festival and he's chilling outside.
Beat caria manor and even have been in rannis rise. She's not there!
Trying to unlock renna's rise and the rest of the ainsel river and uh... how?!?!
It seems like a large part of the story is set around ranni but ive never even seen her.
How do I progress?!
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2024.11.27 15:30 ThrowRAexistential Verbal offer, now waiting to hear from HR?
Good morning everyone, received a verbal offer over a week ago for a compliance role however have not received any offer letter or anything on Workday or from HR. Does anyone know how long the process takes? Thanks in advance.
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2024.11.27 15:30 TheRootedCorpse My lil monster
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2024.11.27 15:30 Turbulent-Thing3104 What do you call a fish without fins and a tail?
A one-eyed grape.
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2024.11.27 15:30 Scuzmak 11/26/24: Shots Fired, Griswald Heights, East Troy
Just before 12am on Tuesday 11/26 there was a call to police for a shots fired incident at Griswald Heights in East Troy.
https://www.facebook.com/100063671672223/posts/1157136339752078/
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2024.11.27 15:30 briandemodulated How do you plan to use stems?
As an OG Prime 4 owner I'm excited to try stems very soon! Maybe overexcited - I decided to convert my entire library to stems (~2200 songs, ~15 seconds per song = ~9 hours to convert all, 30GB library now takes ~90GB).
I've never used stems before. Here's a few ideas I'm rolling around in my head and would love to hear yours!
- Play 2 or more amelodic techno songs with different elements isolated in each
- Creating acapellas and superimposing them on techno tracks
- Creating happy hardcore acapellas and superimposing them on angry hardcore tracks
- Isolating a house bassline and superimposing it on an amelodic techno track
- Creating singalong moments by isolating or hiding vocals
- Playing a well-known pop song and replacing the percussion with a banging techno or house track
2024.11.27 15:30 LongHotD0G is there any, ANY way to get the electrolyser to work wthout the DLC?
even if it needs file editing all i want is to make oxygen for a submarine
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2024.11.27 15:30 Jolly-Ball-51 What is the equivalent of 1728x1080 resolution in 4k?
1080p = 1728 x 1080
2k = 2304 x 1440
4k = ?
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2024.11.27 15:30 Competitive_Car8724 I think scars are ugly
A lot of time a scar can be commemorative of the worst moments of somebody's life. When I see someone with scars, I don't think it makes them look strong or beautiful. It just makes me sad and angry. I hate the scars that I have and I don't want people to ever mention them or even see them, because it just brings back memories of the lowest points of my life.
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2024.11.27 15:30 Sure-Equipment-1021 More Arthurian Lore. Possible EE step.
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2024.11.27 15:30 Open-Evidence-458 It is rael
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2024.11.27 15:30 NoParamedic21 I'm a yng slave on snap doing tasks with my cum DM me
Snap: lucaswill202
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2024.11.27 15:30 banalfiveseven Blexas bros...
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2024.11.27 15:30 illynpayne_ Random cards you want to be released?
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2024.11.27 15:30 WI_Garden_Media November 22nd -26th Images of the #northwoods of #wisconsin weekly photo video of camping #32
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